After an awesome weekend at Danny's house i think I have hit the first low of the semester....I'm confused once again and in a crappy mood. Maybe climbing and watching 24 tonite is gonna cheer me up a little bit. I don't even know why I'm in such a bad mood. Maybe b/c all of my classes are a total bore...maybe b/c I didn't do a thing over the last couple of weeks and the boredom just gets to you...maybe b/c of stupid crushes....maybe b/c I do miss my family a lot...maybe b/c I'm not getting anywhere on this religion thing of mine...maybe b/c I'm just tired. So this Dillard's truck just drove by my window and I'm wondering what in the world a Dillard's truck is doing in the service parking lot. This parking lot only goes to the kitchen.....strange, very strange, but it made me smile. It's amazing how I can sit alone in this room and make myself smile. Being able to entertain yourself is an awesome ability or maybe it's just crazyness....i mean insanity....is crazyness even a word? Well, I'll make it one. B/c I'm the crazy German.....the crazy German scientist that walks the fine line between genius and insanity everyday. Or maybe I'm just a nerd or a dreamer that can just daydreams for hours and hours. I think if I would be able to write books about what goes on in my head then....it would be a fantasy world like no other. My world. Ok, time to listen to some Pur...one of the best German bands ever. Dang it, that just puts me in a weird mood again cause I know that nobody reading this knows the band or understands why I like them so much. I sometimes wish that I could have grown up in the US just so that I would actually share the same culture with my friends....but then the German Pride comes through again...*huge grin*. It's only been 4 years that I have lived here so it's understandable that I'm torn between the two cultures but I wish I would finally find my place in all of this...find out for sure where I belong. "Geweint vor Glueck" is the best song ever and that's what I'm doing right now...sitting in front of the computer and crying because I'm happy....and smiling at myself b/c I'm so stupid. Ok, I shouldn't have told y'all that. *grin*

One instant is eternity;
eternity is the now.
When you see through this
one instant,
you see through the one
who sees.

When we understand, we are
at the center of the circle, and
there we sit while Yes and No
chase each other around the
circumference.