Snow in LJ

'Twas was the night before christmas (or actually christmas for us Germans),
When all through the house the Aheimers were stirring (and unwrapping presents).
The stockings were hung by the chimney with care,
In hopes that Mom had put presents in there.
The children were nestled all snug on the couch,
While it was lightly snowing outside.
A few flurries stuck to the grass and ground
nothing special to us Aheimers. (Totally doesn't ryhme but it's all good)
The flurries quickly turned to real snow,
And before we knew everything was covered...hohoho.
The news said about less than an inch or so,
But it was more like freaking 5 inches of wet, snowball-fighting-type snow. Yipeeeh....in freaking Lake Jackson by the way. The last time they had now was 15 years ago and that was only flurries. I can't believe we actually have a white christmas. It's so freaking amazing. This morning our entire neighborhood made snowmen. Ours is by far the coolest and most creative, because we Germans actually know how to built a snowman (FYI you roll the snow and don't just make a big pile). Anyway, the pictures are up on the family website for the nonbelievers. Ok, for right now I'm just gonna use my sisters footspa and enjoy the snow and our broken screen (since two panels broke b/c the snow was too heavy). This is sooo unbelievably great.
Snow = Happy Anni :)
Snow in LJ = Super Happy Anni :) :)

Merry Christmas Everyone

Ok, quick update. SKiing in Winterpark was a blast, I wanna move to Colorado so bad now. Anyway, the skiing was great except for the temperatures. The last couple of days we woke up and it was -5 degrees Fahrenheit. That is freaking cold, the weather is insane, supposedly it is snowing in Houston right now. Our airplane was delayed 4 hours last night because it couldn't leave Cleveland, so we got in at about 4 this morning. Anyway, today is Christmas so I'm excited and yes we crazy Europeans celebrate on the 24th. First Christmas present today was my first B in College. Bye, bye 4.0. I'm proud of the B though because it was Dr. Borst's class. Ok, I gotta go help my mom with Christmas preperations. Oh, another cool thing. I lost my driver's license and I found out the airport does not accept Tech IDs (even tough it's a photo ID). BTW Happy 21st Audrey, I'll call you right now to wish you a happy bday. Merry Christmas everyone.

Back in LJ

So after 9 boring, uneventful hours (record time, wohoo) I made it back to LJ. My mom welcomed me with a bday cake and my dad with HDTV on our huge 50 inch flatscreen tv and my lil bro and lil sis with crazyness and whipped cream on their pizza. So I guess everything is back to normal. Tomorrow is going to be a long shopping day and then Friday we leave to go freaking skiing and boarding in awesome Winterpark, CO. I can't wait. Btw Burns don't forget. The 20th, noon, on top of Mary Jane, you better be there or else. :) Anyway, I think I'm gonna hang out with the fam since I only get to see them for about 2 weeks. Oh yeah and to my delight I miraculously pulled of an A in thermodynamics. The only class I ever failed an exam in and was considering dropping. Ok, I'm outta here, everyone have a great break.

Don't wanna study

So since I don't wanna study for my thermo final in 2 hours, I'm gonna write some useless random shallow stuff in here.

My mom is currently in New York City with the ladies from her Monday Night Group. I guess those rich housewives have nothing better to do. Just kidding. I'm happy my mom gets to do all kinds of stuff especially since only my lil bro is left in the house.

I'm going skiing in Winterpark, CO on the 17th. I'm probably gonna end up hitting the slopes with Burns since he and his family are going too. Burns you are about to eat some powder. Oh, I can't wait. The last time I went skiing was two years ago.

Except for finals. I'm having tons of fun right now. I'm probably not gonna leave til Wednesday so that I can chill and hang out some more. How come that I have partied more during finals week than all semester long?

Ok, I'm gonna make myself some lunch so that I won't be starving during the suckiest final ever. Later

Horrible Horrible Names - I think I'll stick with Anika

1. YOUR PORN STAR NAME: (Name of first pet / Street you live on): Freezerburn 32nd Street
2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (Name of your favorite snack food / Grandfather's first name): Duplo Emil
3. YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME: (First word you see on your left / Favorite restaurant): Flamingo Willi Joe’s
4. EXOTIC FOREIGNER ALIAS: (Favorite Spice / Last Foreign Vacation Spot): Paprika Germany
5. SOCIALITE ALIAS: (Silliest Childhood Nickname / Town Where You First Partied): Anuska Drochtersen
6. "FLY Boy" ALIAS (a la J. Lo): (First Initial / First Two or Three Letters of your Last Name): A. Ahe
7. ICON ALIAS: (Something Sweet Within Sight / Any Liquid in Your Kitchen): Gold-Bears Milk
8. DETECTIVE ALIAS: (Favorite Baby Animal / Where You Went to High School): Puppy Brazoswood
9. BARFLY ALIAS: (Last Snack Food You Ate / Your Favorite Alcoholic Drink): Flips Long Island Iced Tea
10. SOAP OPERA ALIAS: (Middle Name / Street Where You First Lived): Almuth Gauensieker Feldstrasse

Bday

I had an absolutly fabulous birthday. It started off with me semi-sleeping in still 9 and then unwrapping presents. As I walked to my only class that day I got soaked from hail and it was actually quite fun. Then I just chilled around the house, replanted my flowers, hung up my huge German flag and so on. At 7 Lib and Denis picked me up to go eat at Johnny Carino's and that's when the evening began. Of course the guys couldn't resist taking me to Cricket's and making my 21st memorable. So thanks JD for getting me drunk. Thanks Laura, Jonathan and everyone else for buying me tasty shots. Thanks Jay for giving the best hugs. Thanks Lib for being my DD and making sure I don't get a hang over. Thanks Lindsay, Burns, Denis and Lib for playing Trivial Pursuit til 3 in the morning. Thanks Danny, Bob and Jennifer for coming to dinner and being great friends in general. Thanks Brett for showing up even though we don't hang out much. Thanks Angela, Audrey and Ellen for calling me to wish me a happy bday. It made my day. Thanks Jason for being dissappointed that you didn't get to see me drunk, because that was you goal for the last year or so. Thanks Julie and Sandee for being great roomies and baking me a cake. Thanks Erica and Melissa for wishing me a happy bday several times. Thanks Dillon, Amy C and Amy C, Jillian, Sarah C, Heath, Lauren Itz, Crystal, Erin and everyone else that simply said happy bday and enjoy your day. And of course everyone else that I forgot. I love my friends and of course my family. Thanks Mom, Dad, Kaki and Xander for always being there for me and singing me happy bday over the phone.

Thanksgiving

Back from a wonderful Thanksgiving with my wonderful family and as always I'm gonna wake up tomorrow and start crying because of all the stuff I have to do. But that's life and that's all I'm gonna say.

Only 1:30

It's only 1:30 and I already had an interesting day. I failed my E&M exam at 11 this morning. Discovering only 5 minutes before the exam that I had left my homework that was due today at home didn't help much either. After that in my communications class I find out that only the rough draft was due today. At least I have the paper done now. Then when I drove back to campus to turn in my homework all these crazy Lubbock drivers and pedestrians are just set on getting me in another accident. Being really tired didn't help much either. So I'm not gonna leave the house except to go climbing today. I can't really go anywhere anyway because I'll be doing all this homework that is due tomorrow.

Treib mich weiter, gib mir meine Hoffnung zurueck....

As I was driving over to Lib's house today. I was listening to my favorite German band Pur. This song in particular I thought fitted very well. I'm trying to find a translation for it, but of course even if I do it's just not gonna sound and mean the same. It's basically about complacency and lack of motivation. Something that I'm really lacking right now. As I was doing my physics homework today aka copying my physics homework I realized once again that I'm really lacking my movtivation. I didn't even want to try. I think it's mainly burn out cause this is already my fifth semester. Another thing is that during the spring semester I learned how to get by, get good grades and have tons of fun at the same time. Now this semester it's not working out anymore cause my classes got a lot more difficult. I'm also expecting that I will do good and that everything will work out, because that's what has always happened in my life. I never had to work extremly hard to get something. So now when that doesn't happend it's extremly discouraging. And for some reason this is not making any sense. It's in my head anyways and that's all that matters. Anyway, I'm gonna get off the computer and hang out with Lib and Denis some more.


Warum hast Du sie verlassen und verläßt Du auch noch mich
sie hasten durch die Straßen und verlieren ihr Gesicht.

Sie sind bequem, gefügig, schlafwandeln durch die Korridore
nur noch Brot und Spiele, ist das wirklich schon genug ?

Ist der Weg zu weit
jedes In- und Aus sich egh´n verlorne Zeit.

Auf meiner Reise gab es wirklich viel zu seh´n
Hab´ vermutlich bei der Eile glatt die Hälfte überseh´n.

Und die schnell erreichte Ziele machen träge, satt
das Blut wird müde. Wo ist die Windmühle, gegen die ich kämpfen kann ?

Sag mir wie, nicht wann
Sag mir, was ich wirklich kann

Mächtig viel Theater, tief drin im Labyrinth
abseits der irren Wege, die vorgezeichnet sind, oh Bitte

Treib mich weiter
Gib mir meine Hoffnung zurück
Führ mich in Versuchung und hilf mir
Zeig mir mehr als billiges Glück

All die Tiere folgen dem Instinkt
fraglich, was die Menschheit unserer Mutter Erde bringt.

Ein großes Segen-Fluch-Getriebe
voller Lust und Liebe, Leid und Lüge
wenn ich mich betrüge, betrüg ich dann auch Dich ?

halt den Atem an
frag mich bitte nicht wie lang

Die Wahl der Qual ist schwierig, wie hätten sie´s denn gern ?
Bin ich nur ein Stückchen Schale allein weit ab vom Kern ?

Treib mich weiter ...

Manchmal hör´ ich seltsame Lieder, die hin und wieder
in mir drin das Weiter suchen

Es klingt nach oben, es klingt nach vorn
Ich hab´ die Gabe - zum Glück - noch nicht verlor´n

Treib mich weiter ....

It's going to be a long day today, but that's ok since most of my days are gonna be like that until finals. But right after finals I get to go skiing with my family in Winterpark, CO and then it's off to LCT. I have no clue where we are going to go for that one. Looks like I'm gonna have an exciting break. Wohooo, I can't wait. I'm extremely tired of school. Papers and exams are just not fun. But what can you do? Otherwise nothing interesting has happened since the last post. Oh wait, I did get a rental car so that I don't have to bum rides. It's a Grand Am so nothing special like Heath's Dodge Minivan. I would have loved that car cause my friends already call me Soccer Mom. Hihi, anyway I'm off to take a shower and let the day begin.

Sometimes the wind speaks to me.
I am the wind when it speaks to me.
As I am walking,
no longer do I know time.
For the sound sounds the same
as it has always been.

Oh!
What bliss!
Self -
No more.
Time -
Don't know!

Only Truth, Truth, Truth.

-Seasmile

My poor car

On my way to class yesterday afternoon I'm about to turn right onto Brownfield Highway from 19th Street when I noticed a red truck in front of me. I think to myself you better slow down otherwise you are gonna do the same thing Sandee did and rear-end the truck. Because we have to yield both the truck and I are stopped, I look left and behind me to check the traffic and see no car coming and gun it. The only problem is the car in front of me hadn't moved yet. And since his bumper is at the height of my hood it totally smashed my right light, scrunches up the hood and cracks the radiator completely. The steering is messed up too and who knows what else. My car got towed in today to be fixed and luckily the insurance pays for all of it except the deductible. And right now I want nothing more but to be 21. Cause if I would be I could get a free rental car but since I'm not 21 that doesn't work and I'm gonna be bumming rides of everybody for the next week or so. It's noting really new, it's not like I haven't done that for the first two years up here at college. :)

Cancelled Class

I was runnning late to Thermo again this morning. Luckily Thermo was cancelled, so that's why I'm sitting in the ME lab right now doing nothing. Ugh, I want my motivation back....right now. Anyway I think I'm gonna play some games, then read magazines in my Mechanics class, then do Mechanics hw and I will get it done today and if that's the only thing i will get accomplished, then materials, SWE meeting, Paradigm and hanging out. Sounds like a fun day. Btw I finally got my Travel Letter which means I can actually leave this country and get back in. Wohoo. Otherwise life is great, I miss my friends and that's about it. Later

No Motivation

I have plenty of homework to do before I leave this friday to go climbing and I probably should start studying for my exams next week and work out some more and start thinking about what I'm gonna get my family for christmas and the list goes on and on and.... I don't wanna do any of it. All my motivation is gone. So I guess I can wait til it comes back or I can just get my act together and start working off my to do list. Later

Some friends have visions or dreams of the Buddha,
where He is all magnificent,
smiling, beckoning…

But what would you do if you see the Buddha in person?
After bowing, paying respect?
Do you just gaze on in a daze of amazement?
Do you just bask in His glory?

Truth is,
if you do not ask for the Dharma,
you are not a true Buddhist, not a Truth-seeker;
you are merely a Buddha worshipper.

This is the title.... :)

Mulan just has to be about the best Disney movie ever besides Finding Nemo of course. I just love that movie, and it's especially good when you are procrastinating. Motivation this semester is just lacking but only about 5 more weeks or so and then I get to go skiing with my wonderful family and just chilling down in Lake Jackson without any snow. Oh man the snow yesterday and today just made me so happy. I didn't have a snowball fight or built a snowman but I still love the snow. Ok, I probably should be going to bed cause I have a long day tomorrow of class, Wiley's Way, exam, physics hw and then probably Daybreak. Anyway, good night peeps and I love y'all even if I haven't talked to you in forever.

Once again I love life.

Hueco was a blast this weekend. I love that place. It's so incredibly beautiful and inspiring. And I finally sent "Nobody gets out of here alive" which is only about the most gorgeous problem out there. Oh man, I should change my major to premed and then go to Tech's Medical School in El Paso just so I can go climbing there all the time. The sunsets and the moonrises are just incredible and I swear the sky is ten times bluer than in Lubbock. This was just exactly what I needed for a break. I feel so much better, so much more inspired now. Life is just so beautiful. And showers are too, that's why I'm gonna take one now.

Be careful of how you perceive,
of how you interpret the world.
Because your world is exactly the way you perceive it!

The world is your perception.
You personally endorse
each and every one of your delusional perceptions.
You live and die by them!

Late....

It definitely about 1:17 am on a Tuesday night, which is rather unusual for me. It's not that unusual to about half of my friends, whom I do miss terribly btw, but I should be sleeping by now. This week is finally not busy anymore. I actually got to climb today and then I had training for Wiley's Way which is just an amazing outreach program. It's gonna be fun. This weekend I'll be out of town climbing. Finally....since the last trip I took was Labor Day Weekend. I can't wait. I miss being outdoors sooooo much. (BTW the moon is absolutly gorgous tonite.) This weekend is going to be fun. I truly need to get out of Lubbock badly right now. There has been just too much stress and too many worries about school but mainly about my friends. And there has been quite a couple of dissappointments. So a change of scenery is much needed. Ok, bedtime since it is 1:26 am now. Good night my friends.

Awesome Quotes, cause they won't fit on my profile

I have gotten to love this one website called "The Daily enlightenment." It has simple reflections for each day. It's awesome cause these will actually make you think. So I'm just putting a couple on here since they won't fit on my profile.

The Truth cannot be conceived.
It can only be experienced.
Do not think you can think of the Truth.
All you can do is see it.

The Buddha did not imagine or concoct the Truth;
He saw it.

Thus, in meditation,
do not think, just see.
Meditation in the end is just two things -
stilling your mind so that you can look at it so clearly,
that you realize the naked Truth about everything.

Once you think about the Truth,
it is just a thought about it,
not Truth itself.

When you seek Truth like a thing,
all you get are traces of it,
but not it.



Treasure everything you have in the moment,
because it is only here in the moment.

Be unattached to everything you have in the moment,
because it is only here in the moment.

Balance these in the moment
and you are on the Middle Path.

This one is especially good because it is about desires and I have talked to a bunch of people about it while we discussed religion.

Any desire that leads
to undesirable effects
or to more desires
is undesirable.

The only desire that leads
to the totally desirable,
to the end of all desires,
is the aspiration for Enlightenment.
And even that has to be let go of in good time.

~The Daily enlightenment

I love life

I finally got to see everybody again today, which made me so happy. After being busy for about the last 2 to 3 weeks I really needed this. Of course I wish I would have had the chance to talk to certain people some more and actually have a good conversation with them and not just say hi. But eh what do you expect, I just have too many friends. J/k. I love my friends and I love life. I have a physics exam on Monday, which is gonna kick my butt, but I'm not gonna worry about it until Sunday. And that's when I'm gonna wake up and cry. Paradigm was fun today. I really missed it for some reason even though the only time I ever went I ended up crying because I was so confused. Today it just made me really happy. I was just in the mood to sing at the top of my lungs (offkey of course since I'm not musically talented). Afterwards Laura ask me a really good question though. The simple question was "Did you really mean what you were singing?" and the simple answer would be "I don't know!" And that's my answer and it doesn't confuse me, which is the good thing. Geez, I love life, it's just so beautiful. And you don't really have to believe in God to appreciate all the beauty that surrounds us at every moment, Danny. Anyways, I love sleep just as much as I love life. Therefore I shall go to bed now and not pull allnighters like about 70% of my friends. Love y'all guys. Nighty Night

I'm back

I'm back from conference...Milwaukee was fun...dreams are weird...my SWE girls are the best...American Airlines sucks...and I'm gonna be busy as crap for the next two weeks...

My mom rocks my socks off

Today has been a soso day but then my mom totally made my day. She actually sent me a care packet with a bunch of German food including chocolate which I needed desperately because my supply was running low. My mom is simply the greatest. Funny part is my mom also knows my cooking habits, because she even send me cooking instructions. I'm really not that bad of a cook. Anyways I gotta get back to tons of stuff that I have to get done before conference. I will be leaving at 4 on Wednesday to go to the National Society of Women Engineers Conference in Milwaukee, Wisconsin. It is gonna be freezing but it will be tons of fun. I'll be back late Sunday. Since my phone isn't nationwide, I'll talk to everyone when I get back. Oh and thanks to all of my awesome friends that left comments in response to my last post and the ones that didn't. I love y'all bunches. Laters...

Life and death are of supreme
importance.
Time swiftly passes by and opportunity
is lost.
Each of us should strive to awaken.
Awaken. Take heed, do not squander
your life.
~EVENING CHANT

Bad Bad Day

It all started last night as I was about to go to sleep. I was not in a very good mood and felt quite unhappy. I thought to myself, just go to sleep, tomorrow is another day and you'll feel better just as always. And then it hit me that to be honest I haven't been that happy in a while. I always thought I was but when I really think about it I'm not. I know this sounds really depressing, but the positive thing is I know why I'm unhappy. For one there is a certain feeling I have to get rid off and two the all to common spiritual void. One is gonna be tough and two is gonna be even thougher. I know that finding God is not an easy thing to do, but it is still easier in this environment with a lot of people that think the same way and can help you out. Struggling through this by yourself just makes it so much thougher. I know that's not an excuse, but I just wish somebody would be here to help me with this. It is just gonna take a whole lot of determination and right now I'm simply lacking that. I have been such a slacker this semester. I'm somehow not motivated at all. The good thing is that I'm not that stressed, but somehow I don't like that either. Ughh, life is just such a mess right now. I'm just thinking way to too much and I'm thinking in circles. Why can't I just let things be and enjoy my life day by day? Ok, this is really frustrating me. I'm gonna go to bed cause tomorrow is another day. Hopefully a better one. :/

"Seeking traces of the mind
is like looking for footprints of birds flying in the sky.
They cannot be found,
though intangible karmic imprints exist.

Likewise, when we pass through life,
may we leave no unnecessary traces,
no trail of mental or physical destruction;
only good karmic imprints."

~The Daily Enlightment

Lot of feelings

Jealous, sad, happy, weird, lonely. My feelings are really messed up this morning. I did have a blast last night with all of my friends but for some reason I feel like I'm losing touch with a lot of them and I miss them. At the same time I just feel old. I'm only two years older than all of the freshmen but still. For some weird reason a lot of them just really annoy me. Which is not a nice thing to say or feel, but I do. There have just been a lot of changes since I first got to Tech. I remember hanging out with the same group of friends all the time and now I'm just meeting all these new people, which I don't mind. But I always hang out with a different group and through that I feel as if I'm losing touch with a lot of my old good friends and I frankly don't like it. It just makes me sad. I can't exactly define why. Ok, time to put on a happy face and get ready for the game.

Pondering....

I almost forgot to read my daily reflection today which would have been bad because today is such a great one.

When we begin questioning about our existence,
perhaps the question to begin with is -
"Do we exist at all in the first place?"

Our existential crisis,
or suffering from not understanding our existence,
begins from grasping to the illusion that we exist.

What are we...
but a collection of shifting feelings, perceptions,
mental formations and consciousnesses...
in a body of constantly changing elements?

If there is no real self, who is the questioner?

~ The Daily Enlightment

Isn't this just a great quote to reflect upon, to think about? It really does make you wonder if there is a self or if we are just a small part of something bigger after all. But what really defines existence in the first place?....

Whiter than the stones
of Stone Mountain—
autumn wind.
~BASHO

And another great short but poetic quote. I love quotes, they make you stop and think or sometime they just explain a complex situtation with a just a few words. My favorite one for this week is simply

You existence is enough to make at least one person happy.

I don't know who said that one, but it is so true. But then you got to question again if we really exist after all. :) Maybe I should ask a philosophy major on this one. ;)

BTW girls I love y'all. You are my bestest friends ever and y'all make college so much fun. :)

Content

I'm sitting here talking to Laura about how we are gonna get her telegrams delivered. We need some hot boy on a horse or motorcycle. I know that this sounds random, but since Laura's phone doesn't work anymore and her internet was down for the weekend. Lib, Laura and I returned to old school communication. Lib and I sent Laura a letter Sunday night to invite her to watch a movie with us. We even sealed it with wax. It was great. She got that letter today. Now our telegram boy idea isn't working too well. So if any guys are interested in this job just give us a call actually even better deliver us a telegram. :) Otherwise I'm just really content just sitting here listening to the thunderstorm. I have tons of things to do, but I'm not really worried about it. I think this semester is going to be my slacking semester. Anyway, life is just great, I'm so thankful for all my wonderful friends and I love them all so much. And now it's bed time. Guts Naechtle

As always stressed

So yesterday was all chill. I went to class and then just to the mall, climbing and walking with Laura. Then this morning it hit me. I looked at my to do list and almost wanted to cry. I'm gonna be pretty busy for the next 2 weeks. I guess I'll see everyone in two weeks then. J/k, I'll be around just really stressed. Ok, gotta do my physics hw.

Weird Mood

It's probably because I'm tired and I'm listening to Fiona Apple but I'm in a strange mood today. Talking to Burns about religion last night definitely made me realize again that I'm just beginning with my journey and I hate that. It makes me feel like I haven't accomplished anything and it just simply makes me unhappy and empty. It also doesn't help that a lot of my friends seem to be stressed and unhappy right now and since I care about them, it makes me feel bad as well. Honestly right now know I just want to go hug all of my friends and tell them how much they mean to me. I feel like I don't do that enough but I should and a lot of them probably don't know how much I care and that think about them day and night and hope that they will be happy. Ok, this is causing me to be in an even weirder mood. Something positive for day, today is the Day of German Unity :)

Realise this -
such a simple thing
as easing yourself at the loo,
you have to do by yourself.
No one can do it for you.
Much more you have to do,
by yourself,
to release yourself,
totally,
from all unease.

The Truth is what you know. If you do not know it, you only choose to believe in something that might, or might not be the Truth. Be without choosing. Why play the guessing game? A correct guessing is still only a guessing. To be Enlightened is to be "choicelessly knowing," with no alternative knowledge or doubt. Be in the light. Know the Truth. Don't just agree with the Enlightened; become Enlightened

Failed Thermo Exam

So it did fail that thermo 2 exam. I got a grand total of 68. Isn't that great. Actually not this just means I have to work my butt of to get a decent grade. I'm shooting for a B. We'll see what happens. Otherwise life is great again. I'm not too stressed. This weekend should be fun. I haven't really decided if I'm going to Clovis or not cause I would only be there for a day. We'll see. Ok, gotta do more hw. Later

Stressed

Stressed....if you want to know why ask Laura cause I just vented to her majorly. Thanks Laura for being an awesome friend. Venting helps so much. I was gonna write this hugh entry about being stressed and all, but know I don't even know what to write about. I just started organizing and writing tons of to do lists etc. and now I'm fine I feel like I'm in control again, which is stupid because nobody is ever really in control of anything. But that's me... a control freak and I stress to easily. Only cure for that is listening to Enya and know that everything is going to be alright. Ok, back to my to do lists. Btw caring to much about a person can hurt.

Psalm 73
23 Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand.
24 You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory

This is the verse I had picked for my confirmation about 7 years ago. I don't know what to think about it or if I even want to think about it. I have changed so much since then, since I left Germany and I'm not even there yet wherever I'm going. Ok, I'm confusing the crap out of myself. I like the following more.

A Zen saying says,
"When the Mind TRIES, the consciousness flickers."

Yoda, the Jedi Master from "Star Wars" says,
"Do or not do - there is no TRY."

Morpheus, Neo's trainer in "The Matrix" says,
"Stop TRYING to hit me and hit me!"

Stonepeace says,
"Hold something and TRY to drop it. Can you?"
"TRY not to think about a pink elephant. Can you?"

Zeph says,
"TRYING is the uncertainty,
the fickleness of the heart,
the half-heartedness of intention.
No one became enlightened by trying.
You have to be wholehearted to attain it."


Aaahhhh, my desk is covered in post-its. How am I gonna get this done?

So true!

There is essentially nothing out there,
or here,
that is boring.

There are no boring times and places,
no boring people,
no boring books,
no boring movies,
no boring songs,
and no boring poems...
not even this one,
no matter how dry this might seem.

There is only the bored state of mind -
that fails to mindfully appreciate,
to enjoy...
this moment,
no matter what it presents.

The bored mind yearns to get away,
to an ever elusive better time and place,
that is always somewhere else,
that is always missing here.

Don't kill boredom.
Don't kill time.
Don't kill the moments of your life.
Realise the richness of now - now.

~The Daily Enlightment

Computer :)

I finally got my computer back. Wohoo. And I still have all of my data. Double Wohoo. Ok, I really gotta get back to this physics hw. So I'm just gonna ask one question. What's the deal with people skipping classes all the time? Classes are the reason you are here for in the first place. I just don't understand it. Oh btw I love discussions about religion with my roomies. It's great. :)

Believe nothing, O monks, merely because you have
been told it . . . or because it is traditional, or because
you yourselves have imagined it. Do not believe what
your teacher tells you merely out of respect for the
teacher. But whatsoever, after due examination and
analysis, you find to be conducive to the good, the
benefit, the welfare of all beings—that doctrine believe
and cling to, and take it as your guide.
~THE BUDDHA

Out of the loop

I know that I have been rather busy over the last week and I didn't hung out much with people, but it is amazing how much out of the loop you can become in one week. Since I'm a rather curious person I hate being out of the loop and not knowing what's going on. I know that some of it is y'all business but I still want to know. ;)I hate it when people don't talk to me. It makes me feel as if I'm not worth talking too. Anyway that's my ranting for today and I better head back to my car and try to get out of this campus after an awesome game and btw my computer is getting fixed, the motherboard was broken and they are gonna reinstall windows, which means I will loose my data, which is just magnificient. :)

Thermo

Thermo sucks. Somebody should just kill my teacher. That test was just totally unfair. I'm gonna be surprised if I made more than a 50 on that. Ok, done raging cause I'm not really good at this. I'm more likely to start crying anyway than start yelling once I get that exam back on Tuesday. Ok, that was the negative thing of today. Otherwise I just had a long day of classes and meetings. I was kinda in a weird mood today. It was the I don't know if I should be upset or happy moods. I guess a lot of it has to do with the fact that I'm once again stuck concering my spiritual life. I really gotta work on that, but it's always tough once you are stuck in the day to day routine and just being busy with tons of stuff. Ok, enough about that, the positive things for today. Awesome, absolutly gorgous Lubbock sunset tonite, my computer is actually getting fixed, so it shouldn't be too long til i get it back....hopefully.My car doesn't seem to have any damage from my encounter with the concrete block and the weekend is here. Wohoo :) Just a couple of quotes to think about.

When one tugs at a
single thing in nature,
he finds it attached to
the rest of the world.
~JOHN MUIR

When you try to understand
everything, you will not
understand anything. The
best way is to understand
yourself, and then you will
understand everything.
~SHUNRYU SUZUKI

In these words I can
sum up everything
I’ve learned about life:
It goes on.
~ROBERT FROST

Long Post About Basically Nothing

Sitting in the ME computer lab doing tons of stuff on the computer which I can't do at home since my comp is still being fixed. Anyways since Saturday a lot of stuff happened and I guess since I have nothing better to do I'll tell y'all about my life, so nothing really thoughtful except that crushes suck.
Saturday night I finally went over to Jillie's and Lib's house to hang out with their roommates etc. It was fun except that I'm absolutely horrible at MarioCart.
Sunday I just chilled, had cinnamon rolls in the morning and then ran tons of errands. I finally got a shelf for the kitchen so that we don't have to store our food on the dryer anymore and I also got a bunch of flowers for planters on our front porch. We'll see how long those will last because I'm lacking the green thumb.
Monday I went to class did homework and then went to Women in Climbing. And yes there is waaaay to many people at the wall. No offense to the newbies, but having a little less people is more relaxing. After that I hypothetically asked what would happen if we would drop Jason's Nalgene from the third floor of the rec down the staircase all the way to the bottom. The hypothetical answer would be that it doesn't break because Nalgenes are unbreakable. The actually answer is more like the bottom broke out of the Nalgene. But it gets even better. After that I almost broke my car by actually driving over a concrete divider in the rec parking lot. My Neon totally didn't like that guessing from the scraping noises. But I have an excuse I was talking to Laura on the phone and I can't multitask so I was distracted. Then it was a fun night with the girls driving around town and Lib freaking out :)
Tuesday I didn't do too much just going to class and stuff and then getting about 3 emergency phone calls after my materials class at five. So I totally freaked and stressed out and my mood got gradually worse and worse and it doesn't help when people keep on talking to you and messing with you and annoying the crap out of you. But it was all good when I went climbing that evening. Climbing just relaxes me a whole lot.
Today I just studied for my thermo exam and I'm about to go to Bahama Bucks with my awesome roomie Julie. Wow this is a long post about basically nothing. I do promise a very emotional and raging post after my thermo test tomorrow. I hate that class. Anyway my fingers are about to freeze of since it's winter in the ME lab. :)

Stupid Computer

At the library again because my computer sucks. It won't boot at all. So I'm gonna have to fix that which will take a while. But you know there is always the cell so if you wanna talk to me call....now. Otherwise life is just great. I had a blast hanging with all my old buddies yesterday. Hung out with my girls on Thursday. School is not too stressy and life is just great...except for a couple of small things that just dissappoint you and make you simply sad. Anyways, i gotta try to fix my computer. Later :)

Social Security Number

Wohoo, I finally have my own social security number. I haven't memorized it yet, but now I can finally do what I couldn't do before, like tell people what my SSN is when they ask for it and stuff. BTW sorry guys this means that I don't need plan B anymore. I'm so excited, my very own SSN. I can't believe it. Wohoooooooo... :)

Climbing

AWESOME trip this weekend. I forgot how much I missed being outdoors and climbing and sitting around the campfire just goofing off. I actually climbed my first lead climbs this time and it felt so good. Scary but good. And all the new members are so much fun s and my old buddies are even more fun and I'm just totally excited about this semester. Wohoo. Except for some car trouble again, this trip was AWESOME. Ok nighty night.

Smoothie King

Raspberry Sunrise from Smoothie King. Geez, i love that smoothie. Hopefully they are gonna be done with the Smoothie King on 19th and Memphis pretty soon. Life is just so great. Especially girls nights. Geez, I love those too. I'm totally excited about climbing this weekend. Ok, gotta do some more hw before I leave. Later

Not cool at all

It's only the third day of school and I already don't know how I'm going to be able to finish everything in such little time. I miss everybody, I have a stomach ache and I feel strangely lonely. Finishing this thermo hw and getting some sleep is probably gonna make me be a little more positive...hopefully. This weekend should be fun though. Cause I love climbing outdoors and I have missed it so much over the summer. But I already made the decision not to go out climbing every single weekend because otherwise I'm gonna go nuts...seriously. Enough complaining, I'm gonna finish this hw and then go to bed.

Climbing Club

Wow, wow and wow. We had such a massive turnout for our climbing club meeting tonite it was insane. Three times as many people showed up for this meeting than normally. It was crazy. The wall is always packed as well. I'm kinda hoping that not as many people show up anymore. It makes it more fun. But the Datil trip this weekend is gonna be fun, especially since I get to try out my new sleeping bag. :)

I also changed my blog because the sunflowers dissappeared on the other one and I could never figure out where they went. So I just got a new template even though I really liked the sunflowers. Oh well...

Otherwise nothing much is going on. Classes are like usual and I'm getting back into the school routine. I do like it but at the same time I wish it was summer again. It's only been 2 days and I already miss all my friends I hung out with the last two weeks. That's probably because I never call. I should just start calling people on the way to class cause all I do is walk anyways. Yes I should most definitely do that, because this last weekend at the lake I realized how much my friends really mean to me. And not just my friends I went to the Lake with but all my SWE girls, my climbing buddies etc. There is just so little time to hang out and see all of them. Oh well, it's hw time.

My SSN

The BCIS finally processed all of our Green Card papers and now I'm offically allowed to work and I will get my very own social security number. I'm totally estatic about it ,except for the fact that I now have to start looking for a job which I have never done in my entire life. :/ I guess we'll see how that goes. Otherwise, life has been great. This weekend at the lake was awesome. Tons of floating and laying out and scary dives. First day of school wasn't too bad either. I think I can handle this semester. Ok, time to do hw and trying to stay positive about it.

Sunflowers

Somehow the sunflowers dissapeared but I'm not in the mood to figure out where they went. So just imagine a bunch of sunflowers for now. Otherwise life has been great. I finally have everything in my room where I want it to be and I have had so much fun hanging out with all of my friends. Speaking of friends, to my amusement I have noticed over the last couple of days on more than one occasion that events and stories change quite a bit depending on who you talk to. Anyway, I gotta get up early tomorrow so I'm going to bed.

The path up and down
is one and the same.
~HERACLITUS

Eternity is not
something that begins
after you are dead. It is
going on all the time.
We are in it now.
~CHARLOTTE PERKINS GILMAN

Sitting in the library

I'm sitting in the library and surfing the net for probably a couple more hours. Not having the internet at the house is not too bad right now, but that will change pretty quickly once school will start, so I'm estatic that I'm finally gonna be online on Monday. Otherwise I'm basically done moving in and organizing my stuff even the curtains are finally hanging although they put up quite a fight. And we gotta get a kitchen table, cause Heidi took it with her when she moved out. So I have been sitting in the living room watching the Olympics while I'm eating breakfast. Speaking of the Olympics...the Germans are finally starting to win a couple of medals and the German Soccer women are playing the US in the semifinal on Monday. All I can say is that we better win.

Couple of random thoughts:
My sister moved into her dorm at U of H today. It's a strange feeling that she is now going to college too.
Bought my books today and spend an insane amout of money again.
Gotta go the Student Engineering Council leadership retreat all day tomorrow. We get free food, so it won't be that bad.
I should go to Barnes & Nobel sometime this week because I'm out of books to read. As a matter of fact I'll go right now, cause I have nothing better to do.

Coldfront

It's 9:30 in the morning and the temperature is only 76 degrees with 64% humidity. The high for today will be only 88 degrees. I love this weather, it has been like this for the last couple of days and it feels so good. I know that everybody is laughing that this is called a cold front but for August down here the weather is fantastic. Ok, gotta eat some yummy breakfast and then start packing cause I leave tomorrow morning for Lubbock. Wohoo. I can't wait.

Random Stuff

I'm finally done with my painting project and it looks pretty neat. We'll see how many more projects my mom can give me before I leave. I think there are a bunch of pictures left that I'm suppose to hang up.

Just to rub it in some more for all the people that don't have a beach. The beach was awesome on Wednesday. At first it didn't look like it because when we drove over the huge bridge going to Surfside we couldn't see a thing because it was raining so hard. The wind was pretty intense as well and my mom and I wondered if we had missed the news about a hurricane coming in. We then turned around and drove to Quintana Beach which is only ten minutes away. It wasn't raining there and the sun came out later on. It was fantastic. Because of the storm that came through we had some pretty awesome big waves. The body surfing was sweet. Later on we found some craps and started chasing those around. Man, I love the beach.

My brother started school yesterday. He is a freshman now at B'wood. I asked him how his first day went and all he said was: "Tomorrow I'm bringing a jacket, it's freezing in there." Good thing I never had school in the fish tank. Otherwise school is pretty much routine again, except that Alex and his friends ended up in the girl's gym while going to soccer practice. But that' s my lil brother for ya.

Otherwise I'm just gonna be chillin today. I might start packing but I still have the weekend. I also have to wash my car sometime before I leave, because parking it under a 100 year old pecan tree makes it pretty nasty.

Beauty

Got up early today to work on the paintings. It's taken a lot longer than I expected. But they will be done by the time I leave on Monday to drive back to Lubbock. I'm excited, I get to move into my new house and my sister and my mom are coming with me. Yea... And I'm going to the beach today. :P

Call me Picasso

My latest summer project is coming along pretty well. My family finally agreed on the design of the paintings and I will start painting them tomorrow. Wohoo. I like art as long as I only have to paint squares and triangles cause I suck at painting landscapes or people. I'm already working on my signature so that I can sign my masterpieces later on. :)

Otherwise I have been chilling a lot. I have been to the beach a couple of times. We saw tons of jellyfish and mullets, a bunch of craps and the coolest thing yet, a stingray flying out of the water about 3 feet in front of us. It was pretty sweet looking. Of course everybody freaked out and fleed out of the water. It was pretty funny especially with the recent shark attacks we had down here. So that why everybody loves our pool. We go swimming in it daily. It's like a bathtub since the temperature is about 90 degrees Fahrenheit. But just yesterday I was sitting in it slurping a strawberry smoothie. It felt like I was on vacation. I love it. So I'm gonna enjoy it as much as I can before I drive up to Lubbock in a week. Btw speaking of smoothies, I wonder if the Smoothie King on 19th and Memphis is open yet. Hmmm

Peanut Butter & Summer Project

My mom and I gave up pretty quickly on our summer project to clean up and organize the garage once we discovered yet again that August is the hottest month of the year especially down here in Lake Jackson. We then looked for a different project and decided to hang up all the old family pictures by the stairs. It took us two days of sorting out, getting new frames and hanging up the pictures, but it's finally done now. Our next project is to create some own artwork for the living room. We bought a couple of canvases and some acrylic paint and we'll shall see what the result will be.

This morning I got up pretty early. I guess 8 o'clock can be considered early during summer holidays. I swam a couple of rounds in the pool and then laid out for a bit. And I absolutely love it. It's still reasonably cool and laying out in the early morning sun just feels fantastic. Peanut butter is fantastic too. It's quite strange now that I think about it. I used to hate peanut butter. One could chase me all the way to the moon and back with that stuff. But now I can't get enough of it. I eat at least one peanut butter toast each day. Yummy.

Sears Call Center

I woke up this morning with the sun shining in my face, at the same time I heard it thundering and raining outside. It was one of those really funky rainshowers. I then ventured downstairs to make some breakfast and found my mom talking on the phone. Every so often she would say "Repair Service", "Dryer" etc. I figured she was talking to the Sears automated call center to get someone to fix our dryer. Then she started yelling "Help" and "It's not the pump, it's the belt" into the phone.  After a couple of more minutes my mom just slams down the phone and makes this weird annoyed face. I just burst out laughing cause it was so funny. After agrueing a couple more times with the automated call service my mom finally gets someone on the phone. By that time my sister, my mom and I can't stop laughing. It was just way to funny. These automated call centers are simply stupid.

Today is chill day at this house. That means I get to finish reading "Angels & Demons" by Dan Brown. Awesome author. Bad thing he has only written 4 books so far and I already read 3. But my mom has this awesome bookshelf with tons of books. It's like heaven. Tomorrow we'll probably go to Astroworld and Saturday we will finally for the first time ever go the to the famous Clute Mosquito Festival. :) We'll see what that's all about.

Tubing and Pilates

So a certain friend and roommate of mine always talked about once she transferred schools she wouldn't be doing her homework or anything but instead would be tubing down the river all day long. I have been keeping a close look at her blog and noticed that she always plans but never actually ends up going tubing and she has been there about two weeks now. I think this is just hilarious. Geez Audrey freaking go tubing since you always talk about it. Oh man this is making me smile. My indecisive roommate. :) Love ya girl.

Another funny thing happened today when I went to my Pilates class. I tell ya that class is killing me. My stomach and my shoulders never hurt so much. Bad thing is that my shoulders are not suppose to hurt... *shrug*....*ouch* But back to the funny part. My instructor, her name is Joannie, could be Lauren's sister. She totally reminded me of Itz. The way she looked and talked and the way she could just burst out and do something totally funky at any moment. It made me smile but that smile quickly faded away when Joannie made us do the 20th corkscrew and my stomach cramped up. Good thing is though that I already lost 2 pounds. Wohooo, go me.

Quotes & Random Stuff

Yesterday my brother's friend Ben from Germany arrived. He is gonna stay for about 3 weeks. This is gonna be interesting. Two 14 year olds in one house for that long ;)

I'm back on my workout plan. I went to Yoga yesterday and it almost killed me. I hate being out of shape. :/Today my sister and I are gonna go try out Pilates.  And then it's probably gonna be some running on the weekend and Pilates on Sunday and Yoga on Monday and so on and hopefully I'm gonna lose those 5 pounds rather quickly.

After I picked up my lil bro and Ben from the skatepark yesterday we saw this absolutely ridiculous truck. It was a red F-150 with a cover on the bed. But the ridiculous part was the rear spoiler on the cover. It was hilarious.

To believe with certainty we must begin with doubting.
~STANISLAUS I
 
I would like to beg you to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms orbooks in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now.
~RAINER MARIA RILKE
 

Germany

Finally back from Germany and wow I didn’t know this much could happen in two weeks. I think in a nutshell this year was the suckiest and funnest trip to Germany ever. It all started when we finally for the first time ever left the Amsterdam Airport. For years now we had been changing flights in Amsterdam but never actually stepped one foot outside of the terminal. Everything went rather smoothly until we got to the country with the worst post office clerks ever and the worst traffic ever: Belgium. That day was just simply horrible. My dad had to deposit money in a Belgium bank for the Visa the next day. But no bank in the EU-Capital wanted to exchanges dollars for euros. My parents ended up exchanging it at an American bank and then deposited the money at the post office. A nice post office where you draw number 115 and the number now serving is 23. My dad ended up going there twice which was cause enough for his dislike of Belgium post office clerks. This alone took a very very long time since parking spaces are nonexistent in Europe and my parents had to walk everywhere. Add to this extremely horrible traffic and the fact that you have been up for 30 something hours and all you want to do is sleep which my sis, my bro and I did for about 3 hours in the car parked somewhere in Brussels. The next morning we went to the US. Embassy to get our Visas which was no problem at all. The tricky part then was to get out of Brussels. It took us an entire hour to find the right Autobahn. At one point in time we were stuck in the middle of an intersection with cars all around us honking. Nobody cared if it was green or red or where the lines were. It looked like on of those chaos traffic scenes out of a movie. It was absolutely ridiculous. Before we could head back to Germany we had to stop by the Amsterdam Airport to pick up my dad’s credit card he had forgotten there.

In Hamburg we visited a couple of friends, went shopping, ate currywurst and had a wonderful surprise party for my parent’s 25th anniversary. The party was absolutely fun. My parents were totally surprised and even more surprised to see a couple of people at the party they hadn’t seen in years. Of course they hadn’t seen me in years either so it always was. " You are Gaby’s oldest daughter. My gosh in don’t believe it. You are so big now. " But all in all it was a very fun party.
We then drove down to stay with my aunt near Cologne. I finally got to see my second cousin Celina for the first time since she was born last December. She is soooo adorable. I’ll put pictures up as soon as my dad downloads them on the computer. And the wedding of my cousin was totally wonderful. Her dress was really pretty and the party afterwards was really nice too. The food was awesome as well. But it was a lot of organizing, stressful but fun. And again pictures will follow as well.

This morning when we got to Duesseldorf (the airport we normally fly out off) we meet my cousin (the other one that didn’t get married) who was dropping of her boyfriend that was flying to Greece. When we tried to check in the lady at the desk told us that we weren’t listed. We checked with another guy at a different counter and he told us that whenever the lady in Houston cancel the Amsterdam – Hamburg flight (which we didn’t need since we wanted to drive to Brussels from Amsterdam) our returning tickets (Duesseldort-Amsterdam and Amsterdam-Houston) were canceled as well. And I tell ya what’s a great feeling…standing at the airport and getting told your flight tickets have been canceled. The problem was solved rather quickly though because there were still five tickets available on the Amsterdam-Houston flight and instead of flying to Amsterdam we drove. The taxi only took two hours and we made it well on time for our next flight. You gotta love Europe for being so small sometimes and you gotta love the Dutch, they are a cool and beautiful people. The rest of the trip was pretty much routine. So all in all it was pretty cool and adventurous trip that ended with me getting a cold, losing my tan and gaining 5 pounds.
(5 pounds in 2 weeks, I still can’t get over that *shaking head* I gotta get back to the gym)

Highlight of the day

So the highlight (literally) for today is that I discovered my first grey or more like white hair. I am 20 for Buddha's sake!! Anyways, I'm blaming this unusual discovery on a pigment dysfunction of some sort. I can't be getting grey hair yet, that's impossible. Ok, gotta finish packing. I'll talk to everyone when I get back in two weeks. :)

Go Greece

Yesterday as I predicted the Greek National Soccer Team coached by Otto Rehagel (awesome German coach) won the European Championship by beating Portugal 1:0. SWEEEET
We also sat on our roof and watched the fireworks at Dunbar Park. It was quite fun and I'm sure crazy looking with the entire family sitting on the roof. Later on we went to the beach and blew up a couple of our own fireworks. Including a homemade bomb that Brian made. It was pretty sweet and almost professional looking. Everybody from Lake Jackson was pretty much at the beach since it is outside the city limits and we got to see tons of cool fireworks including burning dunes. Later on at around 3 or so we went to IHOP. I love IHOP at 3 o'clock in the morning. :)

Today is my mom's birthday. We already had a very nice relaxing breakfast and later on I'm gonna make Danish Cheesecake for her. My mom is so cute. I love her.

Tomorrow I gotta get up at 3:30 am to fly to Europe. We are flying over Detroit and have a 5 hour layover there. (I hate Northwest Airlines) and then we will fly on to Amsterdam. And for the first time in about 5 years I will actually get to see more of Amsterdam than just the airport. I have been to the airport at least 20 times but never to Amsterdam itself. Anyhow, we will get our rental car there and then visit one of our Dutch friends on our way to Bruessels. We will stay a day or so in Bruessel and get our Visa renewed (with the exploded guinea pig picture) and check out the city for a bit. Then it's back to Hamburg. We will stay there for a bit, celebrating my sisters Bday and going shopping etc. Then we will drive down to Cologne and Visit my family, go to my cousins wedding and Celina's Baptism. We will fly back on the 20th. This sounds like one cool roadtrip with lots of parties. I can't wait.

Nutcase

My brother is running around the house drinking hot chocolate and singing:" Have a holly, jolly Christmas, It's the best time of the year." in the middle of the freaking summer. And my Dad called me an exploded guinea pig when we were taking passport pictures. I tell ya my family is a nutcase.

LOTR

Yesterday my parents and I went to Houston to listen to the Houston Symphony Orchestra play the Lord of the Rings Soundtrack. It was unbelievably beautiful. I love the Orchestra and Lord of the Rings.

"A free heart is a heart delivered from the gusts and the storms of the affections and passions; the assailing touch of grief, wrath, hatred, fear, inequality of love, trouble of joy, pain of sorrow fall away from the equal heart, and leave it a thing large ,calm, luminous, divine." ~Sri Aurobindo

Germany

We can finally fly to Germany. My dad called this morning and said that they are gonna sent the travel letter to Germany so that we can reenter the country when we come back on the 20th of July. When my mom told me I replied:"Wohooo, I'm excited" and my sister replied:"Wohooo, Underwear" ...Just to make that clear. My sister and I love the store H&M, they have the best underwear in the world and the store only exits in Germany...I think there are a couple in New England too. But who wants to go to Boston if they can go to Germany. ;)

Since the weather today is absolutely nice and sunny I'm going to the beach with my mom and sister. Later :P

Just a couple of random things for my daily update

Greece beat the Czech Republic in the semifinal and is now going to play Portugal in the finals. Wohoo, Go Greece. I predict that they will win cause Greek food is awesome.

I took my history final today, which means I'm done with history except that I still have to take an entire semester. I hate history.

We haven't gotten our travel letter that says we can leave the country yet. We better get it by Monday otherwise we can't go to Germany.

It finally stopped raining down here. About time after 18 days of rain. So tomorrow I'm going the beach. :)

In proportion as our inward life fails,
we go more constantly and desperately
to the post office. You may depend on it,
that poor fellow who walks away with the
greatest number of letters, proud of his
extensive correspondence, has not heard
from himself this long while.
~HENRY DAVID THOREAU

Free Stuff

My Dad somehow changed the phone service so that now it runs over the internet and it's a lot cheaper. My mom and dad were then arguing about if long distance is free or not with this set up and all my dad replies is:

"The only thing that's ever free is death and that's only for the person dying."

Even though it's sad all I could do was burst out laughing. That is ultimate wisdom right there.

Draft

Today as we were talking about the civil war in my history class our teacher mentioned that there is a bill in Congress right now that will reinstate the military draft by spring 2005. This draft would require everyone including women between the age of 18 and 26 to serve for 2 years. And college and Canada this time around are not a way to escape the draft. The reason why it is kept quiet is because of the upcoming election. Go figure, that's typical politics. Now the draft is most likely not going to happen because it would reduce the quality of the military, the training is too long and it would simply cost too much but just the thought that it might happen scares me. It really scares me.

Fun Times

I just got back from my roadtrip to DFW. It was fun and it was really good to see Amy and Lib and Lib's family. And it was really good to get out of Lake Jackson. Now just a couple of random thoughts.

Dallas rush hour sucks just as much as Houston's. Especially when you look down that hill on I 20 and all you can see is nonmoving cars all the way to the horizon. Ridiculous I say, absolutely ridiculous.

DFW floods just as much as Houston. It was amazing how one can have a lake in their backyard when there normally isn't one.

Toby is one crazy dog, but cute I have to admit.

$8.50 for the movies is just ridiculous but yeah for student discounts. $4.00 for the movies in the evening is awesome and both Fahrenheit 9/11 and The Terminal are good movies.

Grand Theft Auto has to be my favorite video game ever because I suck so bad at it, it's really funny to watch. Oh and the nail gun mode is awesome.

Car covered in tons of bumper stickers look kinda cool, Fort Worth's downtown is really cute, the Radio Shack Headquarters is insane and the guns up Jesus rocks.

Frisbee Golf is really cool too and once again it's another thing I suck at.

Oh and whoever orders 45 burgers at Wendy's at 10 o'clock at night should be shot.

Now it's time to read 3 chapters of history and go to class. Wohooo

Roadtrip

I'm going to visit Amy in Fort Worth today....Wohooo. It's gonna be fun.

Wohooo

German riots after Euro 2004 exit
Thursday, June 24, 2004 Posted: 0836 GMT (1636 HKT)

HAMBURG, Germany -- About 150 German football fans went on the rampage in the northern city of Hamburg after their team was eliminated from Euro 2004.

You just gotta love those soccer hooligans. They never dissappoint you. Oh and yeah blame Cananda for the flooding down here.

Stupid Czechs

Ok, this is what I said in a convo to Laura during Germany's game against the Czechs today. "Give me Germany in the quarterfinals or give me death." Hmmm, I guess that means death. So I take that back. Instead I will just blame Canada. Blame you Canada that Germany can't get the ball in the goal. There, I feel much better now.

I hope my back is gonna feel better too after Yoga tonite. I love Yoga. Besides climbing it is my favorite....hmmm, you can't really call it a sport. But anyways I just love it.

July 6th my family will fly to Germany or to be more specific to Amsterdam. From there we will drive to Brussels and get our Visa renewed on the 8th. Then we will drive all the way up to Hamburg and chill there for a couple of days and then it's back down to Aachen for my cousin's wedding and the baptism of her cute little baby Celina on the 17th and then it's back to the US. It is all gonna be a lot of fun but it all depends on one simple, small thing. If we don't get our travel letters from the BCIS then we can't leave the country, which means we can't go. Stupid bureaucracy....y'all better make it quick.

Lately I have been feeling rather weird which I normally do over the summer. It's probably because I actually have lot of time to think, to contemplate which I usually don't do during the school year. I feel lazy, sad, yet grateful,lonely and once again trapped. I feel trapped not because I'm down here in Lake Jackson and all my friends are somewhere else, but because I somehow can't find a way to vent my feelings and thoughts. I have been writing in my journal every night to try to make some sense out of my thoughts and feelings. But it isn't really helping. I once again seem to be waiting....waiting for something...someone...but I can't figure out what. I just wanna be happy, truly happy, not just something that's temporary but it seems like a very long and difficult road to get to that point and I have been getting quite discouraged. I'm to the point of just giving up somehow. But then I came across this quote.

I learn every day of
my life, learn it with
pain I am grateful for:
patience is everything.
~RAINER MARIA RILKE

Patience truly is everything and it is something I don't posses.....yet.

Ok, now I'm depressed. Today is just not a good day. Yoga here I come. Time to relax

Blame Canada

My brother and I were talking about the Euro 2004 and I said that Germany absolutely has to beat the Czech Republic to get into the quarterfinals. My brother starts singing: "Stupid Czechs, stupid Czechs" then shortly after that switches to "Blame
Canada, blame Canada, blame Canada!" I thought it was hilarious, but it is a good strategy. If Germany doesn't make it to the quarterfinals then we can blame Canada.

The usual daily update.

The common sideeffects of every drug...tiredness and nausea. Not the best feeling in the world, but I'll get over it.

History test tomorrow. Should be just like the last one thus I'm not worried about it.

My brother and his girlfriend are really cute. They didn't see each other for an entire 10 days b/c Rachel was at some camp. My brother was in one of the grumpiest moods ever during that time and he gave Rachel the biggest hug at the movies today. Totally cute.

I had some extremely good seafood yesterday at Willie Joe's down at Surfside Beach with my entire family yesterday evening. I love seafood.

Visiting Amy in Fort Worth this weekend. Fun....

Oh, that reminds me. It's time to take my next penicillin. Yuck, I really hate those pills.

Bunch of Quotes

The six cubit body
contains the origin
and the dissolution
of the world.
~BUDDHIST SAYING

"Whenever I meet even a 'foreigner,'
I have always the same feeling:
'I am meeting another member of the human family.'
This attitude has deepened my affection
and respect for all beings."
~His Holiness the Dalai Lama

With a wish to free all beings
I shall always go for refuge
To the Buddha, Dharma and Sangha,
Until I reach full enlightenment.

Enthused by wisdom and compassion,
today in the Buddhas' presence
I generate the Mind for Full Awakening
For the benefit of all sentient beings.

As long as space remains,
As long as sentient beings remain,
Until then, may I too remain
And dispel the miseries of the world.

A lot of friends have been writing about love, serenity, and happiness in their profile lately and it makes me really glad to see it. Life is just unbelievably awesome.

On a good note. My teeth are still doing great or more like the lack of my teeth.

On a bad note, German only tied Latvia 0:0 which means that we now absolutely have to beat the Czech Republic to get into the Quarterfinals. We shall see if that is possible.

Iron Chef German

So I made some awesome chicken fricassee today. My entire family loved it. Maybe by the end of the summer I can call myself Iron chef German. Haha, that would be too funny. Anyways, this is only the first day after surgery and I'm already eating solid food. Go me. Anyways, my dad and I are gonna fix my computer. Later...

It's a good day

I'm a little sore but otherwise I feel great. I really recommend my wisdomteeth doctor. He did a very good job even though he was a longhorn.

Otherwise life is really great. I'm reading "How to practice the way to a meaninful life" by the Dalai Lama right now and I plan on reading a lot more of his books and getting ahead in my Buddhist studies. It's going to be a lot of work b/c Buddhism isn't an easy religion but will make it.

This weekend I'm probably gonna go visit Amy in Fort Worth. That should be fun. After that it's Germany on July 6th if the govt has our paper ready. I really really hope so, because I really want to be at my cousins wedding.

Then on August 16th it's finally back to Lubbock and moving into my house with some awesome girls. Wohoo. I can't wait.

Just finishing with a quote and then eating some choco mousse my lil bro made me. :)

In zazen we do not expect anything. Zazen is not a
technique to achieve anything. It is much more natural.
And yet, somehow, the most natural thing is difficult
to do. How come? Because we think. There is nothing
wrong with thinking. Thinking is a very natural process,
but we are so easily conditioned by our thinking and
give too much value to it.
~MAEZUMI ROSHI

Wisdom Teeth

I got my wisdom teeth pulled today. It was kinda interesting. They completely sedated me and I basically don't remember a thing. Just random bits and pieces. Like asking my mom if she got my purse, getting wheeled out to the car through a back door in a wheelchair, my mom being upset b/c Walgreens didn't have the prescription ready, me popping a couple of pimples cause it didn't hurt and just getting home and crashing on the couch. According to my mom I kept on talking nonstop on the way home but I don't even remember that. Not remembering feels really strange, this is what getting wasted probably feels like and frankly I don't like it very much and that's another reason I don't drink. But the good news are that I'm not in a any pain...yet and that my family pampers me the entire day. My brother especially made chocolate mousse for me. And my mom rented movies for me to watch tonite. Woohoo and I'm probably gonna go to the beach on Sunday to relax. Ok, I think I'm gonna lay back down cause I'm dizy. Later

Again

And it's happening again, that would be the second time this year, and again I'm right in the middle of it because I'm stupid enough to let this get to me the way it is. I should just stop, I have done it before but it is rather difficult. I'm just gonna get my mind onto something else. Period. But it hurts.....

It's raining men

It's raining men...Hallejulah...It's raining men...Amen

It's been raining since yesterday and at first it was kinda cozy, sleeping while there is a thunderstorm outside. But now our pool is about to totally overflow and flood the entire backporch. Should be interesting to watch. I hope it's stops tonite though when I have to go to yoga.

Sooooooccer

Btw Germany played the Dutch today at the Euro 2004 and it ended up being 1:1 due to a lucky shot from the Dutch in the 80th minute. I dislike the Dutch with their unfashionable orange jerseys. And I dislike US television for not showing the games. Ok, I'm quite upset now, bedtime.

History...

Today at 5:15 pm I left to go to my history class at Brazosport College. I almost was late again. I'm too used to just walking to my classes in 5 minutes that I totally forget that depending on how many red lights you hit and how many slow grandpas in oldsmobiles drive in front of you it can take up to 20 minutes to get to class. I really have to get used to that this fall. Actually driving to school is gonna be an new experience. Anyway, my teacher passed back our test today and I was happy about my A :), he then talked a total of three and a half hours about history. Three and a half!! We covered the entire American Revolutionary War AND every single detail about the Articles of Confederation and the Constitution. That is even too much for an American to take, except for those few crazy History majors out there ;) Boy am I happy I don't have to learn German history. It would probably take a grand total of 6 semesters or so. But the greatest thing yet, next Tuesday I already have another test. Yipee....not. I will hereby solemny swear never to take a 4 hour evening class again. I'm tired, I'm going to bed. Nighty Night

Splish Splash

Just got back from Splashtown with my family. It was tons of fun...my lil bro got burned and we know now why Houston was voted fattest city. Now I'm exhausted and I will probably just play a couple of board games with my sister. Later

And yeah Harry Potter was awesome. I loved it how it was a lot darker than the first movies just like the books. I think I'm gonna reread all HP books again if I have time.

Aloha!!

My parents got back from Hawaii on Friday. They had a great time and now I really wanna go to Hawaii. Hmm, maybe for my 25th anniversary whenever that will be. Anyway my dad took some really cool pictures so just check it out and become jealous too.

http://www.home.earthlink.net/~dirkaheimer/

I'm too tired to get the link thing working so y'all are just gonna have to copy and paste it. Later...

I'm not gonna complain

I'm not gonna complain, I'm not gonna complain, I'm not gonna complain....Geez, that's difficult.

If you would be a real seeker
after truth, it is necessary that at
least once in your life you doubt,
as far as possible, all things.
~RENÉ DESCARTES

Missing Lubbock

It's the second week of June and that means only one thing. TWO more freaking months til I go back to Tech. It's getting to the point of being unbearable. I never realized that I could miss my friends, Lubbock, and Tech that much. Mainly it's because the only people I hang out with down here is my family. And you know what I'm gonna stop complaining right now. I'm gonna enjoy this time with my family as much as I possibly can. In fact no more complaining about being stuck down here and missing my Tech buddies until the end of summer. I'll just add that to my to do list. Oh boy that list is actually quite long. Anyway, good night. Oh add order contacts to that list too otherwise I can't see.

Happiness

My aunt Alexa called this morning and talked to my sister for a while and then to me. After talking to her for about 15 minutes I realized that she is just simply dissatisfied with her life. Later on my sister started crying because of things my aunt said. My sister is in general a very happy person and it really hurts me to see her cry like this. I was rather furious at my aunt. Just because she is not happy doesn't give her the right to make my sister cry, talk bad about my dad etc.

My sister and I ended up talking about our family a bit and how many family members are quite unhappy. My family is not very big and most of them had a rather hard life. My grandparents grew up during world war 2, my mom and her sister grew up in the post war era, my dad's mom put him and his sister in an orphanage and that same lady who technically is my grandma, visited us grandchildren twice our entire life.

This made me realize once again, life is hard and then you die. Period. This goes along with the Buddhist first noble truth that simply states "life is suffering". Now people have told me that this is pessimistic way to look at life. It isn't so much pessimistic but a logical, practical outlook on life. I always tell people life is beautiful and they tell me that it disagrees with Buddhism but I personally think it doesn't. Yes, life is suffering, that's a fact, but it's what you make out of you life, how you see it, how you look at it, that makes it's beautiful. This actually goes with Jay's blog title which says "Dandelions - You see flowers in these weeds". Yes my family had a hard life, but instead of just being dissatisfied and unhappy they should try to see the beauty of life, the beauty of humanity, the beauty of the universe. I now that is it easy for me to say because I had a rather perfect life and it should be easy for me to be happy. But I see so many people like me that had the same type of life and they are just not happy. Life is beautiful people. It's everywhere. It's in the wind that sends ripples across the water in the pool. It's in the rain that splashes onto the newly waxed car. It's in the sun that blinds you when you drive home and bathes the trees with Spanish moss in sunlight. It's in the music your brother plays on his bass or viola. It's in the food your mom cooks.

On a different note I have been a little dissatisfied with my laziness that started when I got home in May. Thus I'm gonna change that and I'm gonna follow this plan for the rest of the summer.

Read and study more about Buddhism
Read the Da Vinci Code
Mediate everyday
Work out at least 4 times a week including Yoga class on Mondays and Wednesdays
Clean out and rearrange the garage so that Dad's car can finally fit in it
Get an A in my history class
Learn how to cook
Don't sleep past nine o'clock
Visit Amy in Fort Worth
Watch Harry Potter and other cool movies that come out
Update my Resume
Organize stuff for moving into the house in August
Eat some good seafood
Get a tan
Finally put up the Monet in my bedroom
Go to Germany....hopefully
Don't complain too much when I get my wisdom teeth pulled,actually no complaining at all
Work on SWE stuff
Go climbing
Drink 2 liters of water a day
and write more nonsense in my blog

Kids are annoying.

Today I came to the conclusion once again that I'm not gonna have kids for a long time and I would suck as a housewife. I arrived at this conclusion after babysitting this morning and Liam (that little brat) got very close to driving me insane. His attention span is about 2 seconds and he has the special talent of screaming for his mom constantly in this insanely high pitched voice only a guy before puberty can achieve. Even Amy (the baby with the longest eyelashes ever...makes me jealous) who normally is the cutest baby in the world was little Ms. Grumpy today and cried the entire time and smeared noodles and pear everywhere on her high chair. Yeah, before I'm gonna have kids I will most definitely think twice. And after almost ruining dinner yesterday and my sister coming to my aid and then yelling at me because I put wet towels in the laundry hamper I decided that the only reason why I would be a soccer mom is so that I can drive a mini van and carry huge beach bags around. I should probably just move to Hawaii and lay on the beach all day. I'm quite jealous at my parents who are having a blast on Hawaii right now. Swimming with sea turtles, eating breakfast out on the balcony with palm trees and watching lava flow out of a volcano is just sweet. Wow my brother is actually playing his viola again, I'm listening to him right now. SWEET, he can actually play the LOTR music. I hope he gets back into orchestra in high school. Ok, I should probably help my sister get ready for the surprise pool party. Yea...

Long day and my brother won't stop playing his bass.....

I went to Houston today to help my lil sister with her orientation at U of H. After getting lost in the ghetto, I know for sure where MacGregor Road leads to now. Anyways, of course I couldn't resist and had to wear a Tech shirt (GO RAIDERS) which got me a couple of weird looks as I was walking around campus. My sister of course gave me the obligatory campus tour and I have to say U of H has one of the funkiest campus I have ever seen. Granted it is the only campus besides Tech that I have ever seen. My first impression was "Tech looks soooo much prettier than this, this is ugly" After seeing the brand new Rec Center equipped with an outdoor pool, palm trees, a tall climbing wall and all this other awesome stuff I kinda changed my mind. Then I saw the SWE hangar, which is just sweet because SWE members just hang out in this old hangar all the time in between classes. Then of course the Architecture building just blew me away. I'm not an architecture major but even I wanted to cry because of jealously. Next was the library which is brand new and almost unbelievable as well. U of H also has all these cool fountains and ponds on campus and then there are all these totally ugly, old and mismatched concrete buildings that make up the rest of campus. In the end I couldn't really decide whether this was a pretty or ugly campus. But I'm totally proud of my sister, I know she is gonna have a blast and really enjoy her major at the on campus Hilton which is a sweet hotel by the way. Afterwards I drove to Westheimer to get some shopping done around 5ish, which was a big big mistake. I know that Houston people are gonna laugh now but as a Greater Greater Houston Area Person I totally forgot about rush hour and construction. Go me. After I finally made it home before my foot started cramping up too much (I freaking drove the standard to Houston, Go me again) I'm now sitting here trying to relax and my brother decides he is gonna play the bass some more. I think I'm just gonna go to bed.

Roadtrips and Camping?!

This is one paragraph from my wonderful roomie and friend Audrey’s latest entry in her lifejournal.

"anyways, my dad is still job-searching and constantly doing stock research/investing-he worries/stresses a lot, and these things are constantly on his mind-i'm praying he'll find a job soon, because i can't handle him like this-he's making his hair go gray, and his blood pressure go up. he always says he's just "emoting" when he sighs or groans in frustration and aggrevation. i just don't get it-if i were off work like him, i would take a road trip or go camping or something and take advantage of the time off. i know that he needs a job-and he still has to pay for the house, cars, my and my brother's college (which for evan is in three years) but there's nothing wrong with taking time away from stress to meditate, pray and think."

ok, when I read this I just had to rant, so here it goes:

Audrey, I just hope that a couple of years from now when you have kids and actually have to provide for them you won’t think the same way. That whenever you are unemployed you don’t go on roadtrips or go camping and stop worrying about how you are gonna pay the bills. I know that money isn’t everything in life. And yes, if you dad wouldn’t get a job you could probably live of your mom’s salary. But that would probably mean that you would have to sell the cars, move into a smaller house and no college for you or Evan and I know that you are not willing to cut down on the lifestyle you are living right now. So yes, you dad has a right to worry because he STILL has to pay for the house, cars AND for college. This is not a time for him to take roadtrips. Sorry if I have offended you, but the way you are thinking just doesn’t work. If you are single maybe, but at least not for a father who has a family, loves his family and wants his daughter and son to go to college. The reason why he is worrying is because of you. I know that it is hard to watch, I can’t handle my dad stressed out either. But just because you stop worrying that doesn’t mean the problems will go away. And not having a job is a rather big problem.

Boooo

In exactly 11 days the European Championship in Soccer is going to start. But will I be able to watch the games...? No, of course not because it will only be shown on pay per view. Thank you ESPN and FOX sports for totally disappointing me.

25th Anniversary

Today is my parents 25th Anniversary. Yesterday a ton of people came over to decorate the house like it is tradition in Germany. It was just simply amazing, my parents weren't expecting it at all. They all brought food and drinks and stayed for a while. The most hilarious part of the evening though was my brother's reaction to my parents kissing. He just turned around in total disgust and said:"UIHH, that's my parents!" He just finds it disgusting, I think it is totaly amazing that my parents still love each other that much. I'm really proud of them.

Turkish Hashish

My brother brought up the topic of Turkish hashish at breakfast this morning. We didn't know if it is the same word in English or if hashish translates to marijuana. We busted out the dictionary and it told us that hashish is the same word in English and used to make a joint. My mom looked surprised and said:"So that's what in a joint?" My brother replies:" What did you think they put in it...parsley?" Needless to say I was on the ground laughing. The situation was just funny. My lil bro cracks me up.

White Oleander

I read Audrey's blog about 2 seconds ago and found out that she is reading the book "White Oleander". The funny part is that I'm reading exactly the same book right now. That must have something to do with the whole roommate thing. Maybe we can even develop psychic powers or so.

Deprived

I talked to my friend Melissa today and she told me about her awesome climbing trip to Datil.....I almost died. I wanna go climbing so bad, it's not even funny. How am I gonna survive all summer long??? I'm just gonna go to bed. :(

I love my lil sis

My sister is graduating this Saturday. I'm so excited except that I have to watch a grand total of 500 and something students graduate. It's gonna be a long evening. But anyway I'm totally proud of my sister. She is going to go to U of H in the fall to study Hotel and Restaurant Management at the third best program in the Nation. Wohoo. Ok, I gotta save my toasted sandwich, I think it's getting burned. Later...

Farewell Freezerburn.....good thing that I already changed the name of my blog

Freezerburn, age 2, of Lubbock, Texas passed away on Saturday, May 22, 2004 due to dropsy and cancer. He was born about two years ago I assume somewhere in Lubbock.

The funeral took place today Saturday, May 22, 2004, at the newly renovated guest bathroom at the Aheimer Residence in Lake Jackson, Texas, at 9:30p.m. with Anika flushing the toilet and her sister Kathrin and friend Michaela witnessing.

He is survived by his owner Anika Aheimer of Lake Jackson, Texas; no children and no grandchildren. His parents are probably dead by now too. And who knows where his brothers and sisters are.

Freezerburn's lifetime achievements include blowing huge bubble nests, jumping out of the tank 3 times and surviving, going on frequent roadtrips from Lubbock to Lake Jackson and back, getting a blog named after him, freaking out people constantly because they thought he was dead, and surviving for almost a year with a huge blue tumor growing on his left side making him lopsided.

White Walls

Today we had to take pictures for our Adjustment of Status aka the Green Card. They have all these requirements such as the right ear has to show, the background has to be white or offwhite....and that's when we came across our first problem. We don't have a single white wall in this house. We have every imaginable color from yellow over cornflower blue (my room :) ) to neon green but not a single white wall. I thought that was kinda funny.

24!!!!

Season Finale of 24 next Tuesday and this time I'm not gonna miss it. My freaking sister forgot to tape it tonite. I was so mad. Oh well, next Tuesday at 8.

Lost ID

About 2 weeks ago I had lost my Tech ID at the Climbing Club party....or so I thought. I happily went to the ID office 2 days later to get a new not broken ID with a new picture that looks more like me. About 2 seconds ago I was sitting on the couch looking through my wallet and I found a pocket that I had never seen.....or so it seemed. And what do I find......of course my old ID. Go me. That means that I actually kept my record of never losing anything. So I simply put my old ID back into the pocket that I never even knew existed. End of story.

June 18th

The day I get my wisdom teeth pulled...Fun :)

Zen Saying

Right is not right; so is not so. If right
were really right, it would differ so clearly
from not right that there would be no need
for argument. If so were really so, it would
differ so clearly from not so that there
would be no need for argument. Forget
the years; forget distinctions. Leap into
the boundless and make it your home.

CHUANG-TZU

Survey

And noone has filled out my survey yet. I thought at least one or two people might fill it out. This is sad :(

Land of the Trees aka Greater Greater Houston Area

I got back to Lake Jackson on Wednesday and it hasn't been too boring yet. I got a bunch of things taken care off such as registering for my history class this summer, ordering a parking permit since I get my car next year. Weee, I'm so excited. Besides that I drove my lil bro around a bunch (And yes I am gonna be a Soccer Mom someday), worked out a bunch, started cooking since I really suck at it and I gotta learn before I move into a house next fall and I watched Les Miserable today. My High School Choir and Orchestra performed the entire musical. It was just plain awesome. I recognize a bunch of sophomores from High school and then it dawned on me that they are seniors now. Time just flies, it's amazing. They haven't changed much at my High School. The huge picture with all the drill team members including me still hangs in the hallway. The mural we painted my senior year is still there as well. My High School even smells the same as always. Anyway, that's enough about my high school memories. Back to the real world. Tomorrow I have an appointment with Dr. Flueger so that he can tell me when he is going to take out my wisdom teeth (Fun) and then I have yoga class in the evening. I guess that will give me something to do so that I don't get totally bored. Oh well, I think I'm gonna go work on my puzzle. Later...

Bored thus doing quizzes

Athena


?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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Finally got the comment thing working...yeah...

Thus putting up the survey everybody else put up. Just copy and paste as a comment.

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?

6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?

11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?

16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?

21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?

26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
29. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
34. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?

Bored thus filling out this survey

1)Full name: Anika Almuth Christina Aheimer
2)Single or Taken: single
3)Sex: female
4)Birthday: December 6
5)Sign: Sagittarius
6)Siblings: 2, lil sis and lil bro
7)Hair color: Brown
8)Eye color: Bright Blue
9)Shoe size: 8 1/2
10)Height: 5' 6"

R e l a t i o n s h i p s
2)Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: No
3)Did you send this to your crush: No
4)Where is your favorite place to shop: IKEA
5)Any tattoo's or piercings: Nope, never really wanted either one

T h e E x t r a S t u f f
1)What kind of shampoo do you use: Pantene Pro-V
2)What are you most scared of: The Unknown
3)What kind of car do you want: Volkswagen Golf
4)Who is the last person that called you: Audrey
5)Where do you want to get married: Not in Las Vegas, that's all I know, Close to family probably
6) If you could change anything about yourself what would it be: My Accent, I hate it

F a v o r i t e s
1)Color: Blue
2)Number: 3
3)Food: My Mom's Food
4)Boys name: Estin
5)Girls name: Azalea
6)Subject in school: Physics
7)Animals: Whales & Dolphines & Freezerburn
8)Drink: Whole Milk
9)Celebrity: Franka Potente
10)Sport: Climbing

H a v e Y o u E v e r...
1)Given anyone a bath: Yes, my little brother when he was little
2)Smoked: Nope
3)Bungee jumped: No, it would hurt my back too much
4)Broke the law: Yea, pretty sure
5)Gone skinny dipping: No
6)Made yourself throw up: Yuck, no

T h i n g s T h a t C o m e T o M i n d
1) Red: Blood
2) Cow: Purple Cow = Chocolate
3) Greenland: Flight home to Germany because the plane flys over Greenland for a bit.
4) Do you like filling these out?: Only when I'm really bored

WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW: Nothing, it's completely quiet in the house except for the computer fan.
WHO IS SITTING NEXT TO YOU: A wooden rooster
WHO DO YOU WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF YOUR LIFE WITH: My husband, whoever he may be
WHO DO YOU ADMIRE: My Parents
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY: Life
HOW MANY BUDDIES DO YOU HAVE ON YOUR LIST: 72
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO: Climb, Read, Hang out with friends
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED ON THE PHONE WITH: Audrey
DO YOU LIKE YOURSELF: Yes, I'm pretty content with who I am
DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR FAMILY: Yep
HAVE YOU EVER HATED ANYONE IN YOUR FAMILY: No
WHATS YOUR FAVORITE VEGGIE: Asparagus
FOOD PLACE: Many favorites, I love food.
PLACE TO VISIT: Germany or any climbing location
FAVE MONTH: December
NIGHT OR DAY: Early Morning if I'm up
SUN OR RAIN: Snow
SCARY OR HAPPY MOVIE: Happy, I jump too much during scary movies
CAREER: Mechanical Engineer or Physics Freak

HAVE YOU EVER......
PLAYED TRUTH OR DARE: Yes
GOT INTO A PHYSICAL FIGHT: My sister doesn't really count
BEEN IN A COP CAR: Yeah,
COME CLOSE TO DYING: Not really
BEEN IN A SAUNA: Yep
BEEN IN A HOT TUB: Yep
SWAM IN THE OCEAN: Of course
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT SOAPS: Dove soap is the best, but the tv shows suck, except for Winds of Lubbock
WHAT IS YOUR GOOD LUCK CHARM: My snowflake necklace
WORST SONG YOU EVER HEARD: Some country song
BEST SONG YOU'VE EVER HEARD: There are tons
STUPIDEST THING YOU'VE EVER DONE: I don't do stupid things. :)
WHAT'S YOUR BEDROOM LIKE: Cornflower blue and right now a bunch of crap lying everywhere b/c I just got in from Lubbock.
DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL: I have a couple lying in my bed but I normally kick then out during the night.
MOST PRIZED POSSESSION: My Family
VEGETARIAN: Nope, meat is way to good.
GOOD DRIVER: Yeah, except when I talk on the phone while driving.
GOOD ACTOR/ACTRESS: Nope, I'm just me
DANCER: Yes, I do miss drillteam and ballroom dancing
SHY: If I don't know the people but after that I talk...a lot.
GOOD STORY TELLER: Hmm...I don't really know

HAVE YOU EVER HAD...........
CHICKEN POX: Yep
BLOODY NOSE: Of course
STITCHES: Yeah,
SORE THROAT: Who hasn't
COLD: Who hasn't either
DO YOU LIKE PICNICS: Love them
WHAT SCHOOL DO YOU GO TO: Texas Tech University
LIKE TO SHOP: Not with my sister, but normally yes.
WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WANT: A smoothie, I gotta find out if they have a smoothie king in Lake Jackson

WOULD YOU........
EAT A LIVE HAMSTER FOR A MILLION DOLLARS: No, unless I were really poor
GO TO A HANSON CONCERT IF YOU HAD A FREE TICKET: I would give it to Audrey
KILL SOMEONE YOU DIDN'T KNOW FOR 15 BILLION DOLLAR: No, it's against my beliefs to kill anyone.
IF YOU WERE STUCK ON AN ISLAND WHO WOULD YOU WANT WITH YOU: Any of my good friends.
DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU: I got it from Jay's and JD's journal. And yes I like both of them, they are awesome friends.

Sunscreen Rant

The one thing I never understood is why people hate sunscreen. Dude, sunscreen is your best friend. Seriously......I'm not kidding. I know I sound like my mom, but if there is one thing I hate it is people complaining that they got burned and now it stings and they are peeling. Duh!!! Ultraviolet light tends to do that to ya. Common sense people.....common sense. I don't care if you are trying to be as dark as your Asian cousin or if you are only in the sun for 30 minutes or if you normally don't burn. If you are freaking white, put on sunscreen. If you ever checked the box that says Caucasian on any paperwork, put on sunscreen. Ok, that's it for now, just don't walk up to me and complain that you are burned cause the first thing I'll ask is: "Did you put on sunscreen?"