Stressed

Stressed....if you want to know why ask Laura cause I just vented to her majorly. Thanks Laura for being an awesome friend. Venting helps so much. I was gonna write this hugh entry about being stressed and all, but know I don't even know what to write about. I just started organizing and writing tons of to do lists etc. and now I'm fine I feel like I'm in control again, which is stupid because nobody is ever really in control of anything. But that's me... a control freak and I stress to easily. Only cure for that is listening to Enya and know that everything is going to be alright. Ok, back to my to do lists. Btw caring to much about a person can hurt.

Psalm 73
23 Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand.
24 You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory

This is the verse I had picked for my confirmation about 7 years ago. I don't know what to think about it or if I even want to think about it. I have changed so much since then, since I left Germany and I'm not even there yet wherever I'm going. Ok, I'm confusing the crap out of myself. I like the following more.

A Zen saying says,
"When the Mind TRIES, the consciousness flickers."

Yoda, the Jedi Master from "Star Wars" says,
"Do or not do - there is no TRY."

Morpheus, Neo's trainer in "The Matrix" says,
"Stop TRYING to hit me and hit me!"

Stonepeace says,
"Hold something and TRY to drop it. Can you?"
"TRY not to think about a pink elephant. Can you?"

Zeph says,
"TRYING is the uncertainty,
the fickleness of the heart,
the half-heartedness of intention.
No one became enlightened by trying.
You have to be wholehearted to attain it."


Aaahhhh, my desk is covered in post-its. How am I gonna get this done?