Stupid Czechs

Ok, this is what I said in a convo to Laura during Germany's game against the Czechs today. "Give me Germany in the quarterfinals or give me death." Hmmm, I guess that means death. So I take that back. Instead I will just blame Canada. Blame you Canada that Germany can't get the ball in the goal. There, I feel much better now.

I hope my back is gonna feel better too after Yoga tonite. I love Yoga. Besides climbing it is my favorite....hmmm, you can't really call it a sport. But anyways I just love it.

July 6th my family will fly to Germany or to be more specific to Amsterdam. From there we will drive to Brussels and get our Visa renewed on the 8th. Then we will drive all the way up to Hamburg and chill there for a couple of days and then it's back down to Aachen for my cousin's wedding and the baptism of her cute little baby Celina on the 17th and then it's back to the US. It is all gonna be a lot of fun but it all depends on one simple, small thing. If we don't get our travel letters from the BCIS then we can't leave the country, which means we can't go. Stupid bureaucracy....y'all better make it quick.

Lately I have been feeling rather weird which I normally do over the summer. It's probably because I actually have lot of time to think, to contemplate which I usually don't do during the school year. I feel lazy, sad, yet grateful,lonely and once again trapped. I feel trapped not because I'm down here in Lake Jackson and all my friends are somewhere else, but because I somehow can't find a way to vent my feelings and thoughts. I have been writing in my journal every night to try to make some sense out of my thoughts and feelings. But it isn't really helping. I once again seem to be waiting....waiting for something...someone...but I can't figure out what. I just wanna be happy, truly happy, not just something that's temporary but it seems like a very long and difficult road to get to that point and I have been getting quite discouraged. I'm to the point of just giving up somehow. But then I came across this quote.

I learn every day of
my life, learn it with
pain I am grateful for:
patience is everything.
~RAINER MARIA RILKE

Patience truly is everything and it is something I don't posses.....yet.

Ok, now I'm depressed. Today is just not a good day. Yoga here I come. Time to relax