Bad Bad Day

It all started last night as I was about to go to sleep. I was not in a very good mood and felt quite unhappy. I thought to myself, just go to sleep, tomorrow is another day and you'll feel better just as always. And then it hit me that to be honest I haven't been that happy in a while. I always thought I was but when I really think about it I'm not. I know this sounds really depressing, but the positive thing is I know why I'm unhappy. For one there is a certain feeling I have to get rid off and two the all to common spiritual void. One is gonna be tough and two is gonna be even thougher. I know that finding God is not an easy thing to do, but it is still easier in this environment with a lot of people that think the same way and can help you out. Struggling through this by yourself just makes it so much thougher. I know that's not an excuse, but I just wish somebody would be here to help me with this. It is just gonna take a whole lot of determination and right now I'm simply lacking that. I have been such a slacker this semester. I'm somehow not motivated at all. The good thing is that I'm not that stressed, but somehow I don't like that either. Ughh, life is just such a mess right now. I'm just thinking way to too much and I'm thinking in circles. Why can't I just let things be and enjoy my life day by day? Ok, this is really frustrating me. I'm gonna go to bed cause tomorrow is another day. Hopefully a better one. :/

"Seeking traces of the mind
is like looking for footprints of birds flying in the sky.
They cannot be found,
though intangible karmic imprints exist.

Likewise, when we pass through life,
may we leave no unnecessary traces,
no trail of mental or physical destruction;
only good karmic imprints."

~The Daily Enlightment