Fun Times

I just got back from my roadtrip to DFW. It was fun and it was really good to see Amy and Lib and Lib's family. And it was really good to get out of Lake Jackson. Now just a couple of random thoughts.

Dallas rush hour sucks just as much as Houston's. Especially when you look down that hill on I 20 and all you can see is nonmoving cars all the way to the horizon. Ridiculous I say, absolutely ridiculous.

DFW floods just as much as Houston. It was amazing how one can have a lake in their backyard when there normally isn't one.

Toby is one crazy dog, but cute I have to admit.

$8.50 for the movies is just ridiculous but yeah for student discounts. $4.00 for the movies in the evening is awesome and both Fahrenheit 9/11 and The Terminal are good movies.

Grand Theft Auto has to be my favorite video game ever because I suck so bad at it, it's really funny to watch. Oh and the nail gun mode is awesome.

Car covered in tons of bumper stickers look kinda cool, Fort Worth's downtown is really cute, the Radio Shack Headquarters is insane and the guns up Jesus rocks.

Frisbee Golf is really cool too and once again it's another thing I suck at.

Oh and whoever orders 45 burgers at Wendy's at 10 o'clock at night should be shot.

Now it's time to read 3 chapters of history and go to class. Wohooo

Roadtrip

I'm going to visit Amy in Fort Worth today....Wohooo. It's gonna be fun.

Wohooo

German riots after Euro 2004 exit
Thursday, June 24, 2004 Posted: 0836 GMT (1636 HKT)

HAMBURG, Germany -- About 150 German football fans went on the rampage in the northern city of Hamburg after their team was eliminated from Euro 2004.

You just gotta love those soccer hooligans. They never dissappoint you. Oh and yeah blame Cananda for the flooding down here.

Stupid Czechs

Ok, this is what I said in a convo to Laura during Germany's game against the Czechs today. "Give me Germany in the quarterfinals or give me death." Hmmm, I guess that means death. So I take that back. Instead I will just blame Canada. Blame you Canada that Germany can't get the ball in the goal. There, I feel much better now.

I hope my back is gonna feel better too after Yoga tonite. I love Yoga. Besides climbing it is my favorite....hmmm, you can't really call it a sport. But anyways I just love it.

July 6th my family will fly to Germany or to be more specific to Amsterdam. From there we will drive to Brussels and get our Visa renewed on the 8th. Then we will drive all the way up to Hamburg and chill there for a couple of days and then it's back down to Aachen for my cousin's wedding and the baptism of her cute little baby Celina on the 17th and then it's back to the US. It is all gonna be a lot of fun but it all depends on one simple, small thing. If we don't get our travel letters from the BCIS then we can't leave the country, which means we can't go. Stupid bureaucracy....y'all better make it quick.

Lately I have been feeling rather weird which I normally do over the summer. It's probably because I actually have lot of time to think, to contemplate which I usually don't do during the school year. I feel lazy, sad, yet grateful,lonely and once again trapped. I feel trapped not because I'm down here in Lake Jackson and all my friends are somewhere else, but because I somehow can't find a way to vent my feelings and thoughts. I have been writing in my journal every night to try to make some sense out of my thoughts and feelings. But it isn't really helping. I once again seem to be waiting....waiting for something...someone...but I can't figure out what. I just wanna be happy, truly happy, not just something that's temporary but it seems like a very long and difficult road to get to that point and I have been getting quite discouraged. I'm to the point of just giving up somehow. But then I came across this quote.

I learn every day of
my life, learn it with
pain I am grateful for:
patience is everything.
~RAINER MARIA RILKE

Patience truly is everything and it is something I don't posses.....yet.

Ok, now I'm depressed. Today is just not a good day. Yoga here I come. Time to relax

Blame Canada

My brother and I were talking about the Euro 2004 and I said that Germany absolutely has to beat the Czech Republic to get into the quarterfinals. My brother starts singing: "Stupid Czechs, stupid Czechs" then shortly after that switches to "Blame
Canada, blame Canada, blame Canada!" I thought it was hilarious, but it is a good strategy. If Germany doesn't make it to the quarterfinals then we can blame Canada.

The usual daily update.

The common sideeffects of every drug...tiredness and nausea. Not the best feeling in the world, but I'll get over it.

History test tomorrow. Should be just like the last one thus I'm not worried about it.

My brother and his girlfriend are really cute. They didn't see each other for an entire 10 days b/c Rachel was at some camp. My brother was in one of the grumpiest moods ever during that time and he gave Rachel the biggest hug at the movies today. Totally cute.

I had some extremely good seafood yesterday at Willie Joe's down at Surfside Beach with my entire family yesterday evening. I love seafood.

Visiting Amy in Fort Worth this weekend. Fun....

Oh, that reminds me. It's time to take my next penicillin. Yuck, I really hate those pills.

Bunch of Quotes

The six cubit body
contains the origin
and the dissolution
of the world.
~BUDDHIST SAYING

"Whenever I meet even a 'foreigner,'
I have always the same feeling:
'I am meeting another member of the human family.'
This attitude has deepened my affection
and respect for all beings."
~His Holiness the Dalai Lama

With a wish to free all beings
I shall always go for refuge
To the Buddha, Dharma and Sangha,
Until I reach full enlightenment.

Enthused by wisdom and compassion,
today in the Buddhas' presence
I generate the Mind for Full Awakening
For the benefit of all sentient beings.

As long as space remains,
As long as sentient beings remain,
Until then, may I too remain
And dispel the miseries of the world.

A lot of friends have been writing about love, serenity, and happiness in their profile lately and it makes me really glad to see it. Life is just unbelievably awesome.

On a good note. My teeth are still doing great or more like the lack of my teeth.

On a bad note, German only tied Latvia 0:0 which means that we now absolutely have to beat the Czech Republic to get into the Quarterfinals. We shall see if that is possible.

Iron Chef German

So I made some awesome chicken fricassee today. My entire family loved it. Maybe by the end of the summer I can call myself Iron chef German. Haha, that would be too funny. Anyways, this is only the first day after surgery and I'm already eating solid food. Go me. Anyways, my dad and I are gonna fix my computer. Later...

It's a good day

I'm a little sore but otherwise I feel great. I really recommend my wisdomteeth doctor. He did a very good job even though he was a longhorn.

Otherwise life is really great. I'm reading "How to practice the way to a meaninful life" by the Dalai Lama right now and I plan on reading a lot more of his books and getting ahead in my Buddhist studies. It's going to be a lot of work b/c Buddhism isn't an easy religion but will make it.

This weekend I'm probably gonna go visit Amy in Fort Worth. That should be fun. After that it's Germany on July 6th if the govt has our paper ready. I really really hope so, because I really want to be at my cousins wedding.

Then on August 16th it's finally back to Lubbock and moving into my house with some awesome girls. Wohoo. I can't wait.

Just finishing with a quote and then eating some choco mousse my lil bro made me. :)

In zazen we do not expect anything. Zazen is not a
technique to achieve anything. It is much more natural.
And yet, somehow, the most natural thing is difficult
to do. How come? Because we think. There is nothing
wrong with thinking. Thinking is a very natural process,
but we are so easily conditioned by our thinking and
give too much value to it.
~MAEZUMI ROSHI

Wisdom Teeth

I got my wisdom teeth pulled today. It was kinda interesting. They completely sedated me and I basically don't remember a thing. Just random bits and pieces. Like asking my mom if she got my purse, getting wheeled out to the car through a back door in a wheelchair, my mom being upset b/c Walgreens didn't have the prescription ready, me popping a couple of pimples cause it didn't hurt and just getting home and crashing on the couch. According to my mom I kept on talking nonstop on the way home but I don't even remember that. Not remembering feels really strange, this is what getting wasted probably feels like and frankly I don't like it very much and that's another reason I don't drink. But the good news are that I'm not in a any pain...yet and that my family pampers me the entire day. My brother especially made chocolate mousse for me. And my mom rented movies for me to watch tonite. Woohoo and I'm probably gonna go to the beach on Sunday to relax. Ok, I think I'm gonna lay back down cause I'm dizy. Later

Again

And it's happening again, that would be the second time this year, and again I'm right in the middle of it because I'm stupid enough to let this get to me the way it is. I should just stop, I have done it before but it is rather difficult. I'm just gonna get my mind onto something else. Period. But it hurts.....

It's raining men

It's raining men...Hallejulah...It's raining men...Amen

It's been raining since yesterday and at first it was kinda cozy, sleeping while there is a thunderstorm outside. But now our pool is about to totally overflow and flood the entire backporch. Should be interesting to watch. I hope it's stops tonite though when I have to go to yoga.

Sooooooccer

Btw Germany played the Dutch today at the Euro 2004 and it ended up being 1:1 due to a lucky shot from the Dutch in the 80th minute. I dislike the Dutch with their unfashionable orange jerseys. And I dislike US television for not showing the games. Ok, I'm quite upset now, bedtime.

History...

Today at 5:15 pm I left to go to my history class at Brazosport College. I almost was late again. I'm too used to just walking to my classes in 5 minutes that I totally forget that depending on how many red lights you hit and how many slow grandpas in oldsmobiles drive in front of you it can take up to 20 minutes to get to class. I really have to get used to that this fall. Actually driving to school is gonna be an new experience. Anyway, my teacher passed back our test today and I was happy about my A :), he then talked a total of three and a half hours about history. Three and a half!! We covered the entire American Revolutionary War AND every single detail about the Articles of Confederation and the Constitution. That is even too much for an American to take, except for those few crazy History majors out there ;) Boy am I happy I don't have to learn German history. It would probably take a grand total of 6 semesters or so. But the greatest thing yet, next Tuesday I already have another test. Yipee....not. I will hereby solemny swear never to take a 4 hour evening class again. I'm tired, I'm going to bed. Nighty Night

Splish Splash

Just got back from Splashtown with my family. It was tons of fun...my lil bro got burned and we know now why Houston was voted fattest city. Now I'm exhausted and I will probably just play a couple of board games with my sister. Later

And yeah Harry Potter was awesome. I loved it how it was a lot darker than the first movies just like the books. I think I'm gonna reread all HP books again if I have time.

Aloha!!

My parents got back from Hawaii on Friday. They had a great time and now I really wanna go to Hawaii. Hmm, maybe for my 25th anniversary whenever that will be. Anyway my dad took some really cool pictures so just check it out and become jealous too.

http://www.home.earthlink.net/~dirkaheimer/

I'm too tired to get the link thing working so y'all are just gonna have to copy and paste it. Later...

I'm not gonna complain

I'm not gonna complain, I'm not gonna complain, I'm not gonna complain....Geez, that's difficult.

If you would be a real seeker
after truth, it is necessary that at
least once in your life you doubt,
as far as possible, all things.
~RENÉ DESCARTES

Missing Lubbock

It's the second week of June and that means only one thing. TWO more freaking months til I go back to Tech. It's getting to the point of being unbearable. I never realized that I could miss my friends, Lubbock, and Tech that much. Mainly it's because the only people I hang out with down here is my family. And you know what I'm gonna stop complaining right now. I'm gonna enjoy this time with my family as much as I possibly can. In fact no more complaining about being stuck down here and missing my Tech buddies until the end of summer. I'll just add that to my to do list. Oh boy that list is actually quite long. Anyway, good night. Oh add order contacts to that list too otherwise I can't see.

Happiness

My aunt Alexa called this morning and talked to my sister for a while and then to me. After talking to her for about 15 minutes I realized that she is just simply dissatisfied with her life. Later on my sister started crying because of things my aunt said. My sister is in general a very happy person and it really hurts me to see her cry like this. I was rather furious at my aunt. Just because she is not happy doesn't give her the right to make my sister cry, talk bad about my dad etc.

My sister and I ended up talking about our family a bit and how many family members are quite unhappy. My family is not very big and most of them had a rather hard life. My grandparents grew up during world war 2, my mom and her sister grew up in the post war era, my dad's mom put him and his sister in an orphanage and that same lady who technically is my grandma, visited us grandchildren twice our entire life.

This made me realize once again, life is hard and then you die. Period. This goes along with the Buddhist first noble truth that simply states "life is suffering". Now people have told me that this is pessimistic way to look at life. It isn't so much pessimistic but a logical, practical outlook on life. I always tell people life is beautiful and they tell me that it disagrees with Buddhism but I personally think it doesn't. Yes, life is suffering, that's a fact, but it's what you make out of you life, how you see it, how you look at it, that makes it's beautiful. This actually goes with Jay's blog title which says "Dandelions - You see flowers in these weeds". Yes my family had a hard life, but instead of just being dissatisfied and unhappy they should try to see the beauty of life, the beauty of humanity, the beauty of the universe. I now that is it easy for me to say because I had a rather perfect life and it should be easy for me to be happy. But I see so many people like me that had the same type of life and they are just not happy. Life is beautiful people. It's everywhere. It's in the wind that sends ripples across the water in the pool. It's in the rain that splashes onto the newly waxed car. It's in the sun that blinds you when you drive home and bathes the trees with Spanish moss in sunlight. It's in the music your brother plays on his bass or viola. It's in the food your mom cooks.

On a different note I have been a little dissatisfied with my laziness that started when I got home in May. Thus I'm gonna change that and I'm gonna follow this plan for the rest of the summer.

Read and study more about Buddhism
Read the Da Vinci Code
Mediate everyday
Work out at least 4 times a week including Yoga class on Mondays and Wednesdays
Clean out and rearrange the garage so that Dad's car can finally fit in it
Get an A in my history class
Learn how to cook
Don't sleep past nine o'clock
Visit Amy in Fort Worth
Watch Harry Potter and other cool movies that come out
Update my Resume
Organize stuff for moving into the house in August
Eat some good seafood
Get a tan
Finally put up the Monet in my bedroom
Go to Germany....hopefully
Don't complain too much when I get my wisdom teeth pulled,actually no complaining at all
Work on SWE stuff
Go climbing
Drink 2 liters of water a day
and write more nonsense in my blog

Kids are annoying.

Today I came to the conclusion once again that I'm not gonna have kids for a long time and I would suck as a housewife. I arrived at this conclusion after babysitting this morning and Liam (that little brat) got very close to driving me insane. His attention span is about 2 seconds and he has the special talent of screaming for his mom constantly in this insanely high pitched voice only a guy before puberty can achieve. Even Amy (the baby with the longest eyelashes ever...makes me jealous) who normally is the cutest baby in the world was little Ms. Grumpy today and cried the entire time and smeared noodles and pear everywhere on her high chair. Yeah, before I'm gonna have kids I will most definitely think twice. And after almost ruining dinner yesterday and my sister coming to my aid and then yelling at me because I put wet towels in the laundry hamper I decided that the only reason why I would be a soccer mom is so that I can drive a mini van and carry huge beach bags around. I should probably just move to Hawaii and lay on the beach all day. I'm quite jealous at my parents who are having a blast on Hawaii right now. Swimming with sea turtles, eating breakfast out on the balcony with palm trees and watching lava flow out of a volcano is just sweet. Wow my brother is actually playing his viola again, I'm listening to him right now. SWEET, he can actually play the LOTR music. I hope he gets back into orchestra in high school. Ok, I should probably help my sister get ready for the surprise pool party. Yea...