Sooooooccer

Btw Germany played the Dutch today at the Euro 2004 and it ended up being 1:1 due to a lucky shot from the Dutch in the 80th minute. I dislike the Dutch with their unfashionable orange jerseys. And I dislike US television for not showing the games. Ok, I'm quite upset now, bedtime.

History...

Today at 5:15 pm I left to go to my history class at Brazosport College. I almost was late again. I'm too used to just walking to my classes in 5 minutes that I totally forget that depending on how many red lights you hit and how many slow grandpas in oldsmobiles drive in front of you it can take up to 20 minutes to get to class. I really have to get used to that this fall. Actually driving to school is gonna be an new experience. Anyway, my teacher passed back our test today and I was happy about my A :), he then talked a total of three and a half hours about history. Three and a half!! We covered the entire American Revolutionary War AND every single detail about the Articles of Confederation and the Constitution. That is even too much for an American to take, except for those few crazy History majors out there ;) Boy am I happy I don't have to learn German history. It would probably take a grand total of 6 semesters or so. But the greatest thing yet, next Tuesday I already have another test. Yipee....not. I will hereby solemny swear never to take a 4 hour evening class again. I'm tired, I'm going to bed. Nighty Night

Splish Splash

Just got back from Splashtown with my family. It was tons of fun...my lil bro got burned and we know now why Houston was voted fattest city. Now I'm exhausted and I will probably just play a couple of board games with my sister. Later

And yeah Harry Potter was awesome. I loved it how it was a lot darker than the first movies just like the books. I think I'm gonna reread all HP books again if I have time.

Aloha!!

My parents got back from Hawaii on Friday. They had a great time and now I really wanna go to Hawaii. Hmm, maybe for my 25th anniversary whenever that will be. Anyway my dad took some really cool pictures so just check it out and become jealous too.

http://www.home.earthlink.net/~dirkaheimer/

I'm too tired to get the link thing working so y'all are just gonna have to copy and paste it. Later...

I'm not gonna complain

I'm not gonna complain, I'm not gonna complain, I'm not gonna complain....Geez, that's difficult.

If you would be a real seeker
after truth, it is necessary that at
least once in your life you doubt,
as far as possible, all things.
~RENÉ DESCARTES

Missing Lubbock

It's the second week of June and that means only one thing. TWO more freaking months til I go back to Tech. It's getting to the point of being unbearable. I never realized that I could miss my friends, Lubbock, and Tech that much. Mainly it's because the only people I hang out with down here is my family. And you know what I'm gonna stop complaining right now. I'm gonna enjoy this time with my family as much as I possibly can. In fact no more complaining about being stuck down here and missing my Tech buddies until the end of summer. I'll just add that to my to do list. Oh boy that list is actually quite long. Anyway, good night. Oh add order contacts to that list too otherwise I can't see.

Happiness

My aunt Alexa called this morning and talked to my sister for a while and then to me. After talking to her for about 15 minutes I realized that she is just simply dissatisfied with her life. Later on my sister started crying because of things my aunt said. My sister is in general a very happy person and it really hurts me to see her cry like this. I was rather furious at my aunt. Just because she is not happy doesn't give her the right to make my sister cry, talk bad about my dad etc.

My sister and I ended up talking about our family a bit and how many family members are quite unhappy. My family is not very big and most of them had a rather hard life. My grandparents grew up during world war 2, my mom and her sister grew up in the post war era, my dad's mom put him and his sister in an orphanage and that same lady who technically is my grandma, visited us grandchildren twice our entire life.

This made me realize once again, life is hard and then you die. Period. This goes along with the Buddhist first noble truth that simply states "life is suffering". Now people have told me that this is pessimistic way to look at life. It isn't so much pessimistic but a logical, practical outlook on life. I always tell people life is beautiful and they tell me that it disagrees with Buddhism but I personally think it doesn't. Yes, life is suffering, that's a fact, but it's what you make out of you life, how you see it, how you look at it, that makes it's beautiful. This actually goes with Jay's blog title which says "Dandelions - You see flowers in these weeds". Yes my family had a hard life, but instead of just being dissatisfied and unhappy they should try to see the beauty of life, the beauty of humanity, the beauty of the universe. I now that is it easy for me to say because I had a rather perfect life and it should be easy for me to be happy. But I see so many people like me that had the same type of life and they are just not happy. Life is beautiful people. It's everywhere. It's in the wind that sends ripples across the water in the pool. It's in the rain that splashes onto the newly waxed car. It's in the sun that blinds you when you drive home and bathes the trees with Spanish moss in sunlight. It's in the music your brother plays on his bass or viola. It's in the food your mom cooks.

On a different note I have been a little dissatisfied with my laziness that started when I got home in May. Thus I'm gonna change that and I'm gonna follow this plan for the rest of the summer.

Read and study more about Buddhism
Read the Da Vinci Code
Mediate everyday
Work out at least 4 times a week including Yoga class on Mondays and Wednesdays
Clean out and rearrange the garage so that Dad's car can finally fit in it
Get an A in my history class
Learn how to cook
Don't sleep past nine o'clock
Visit Amy in Fort Worth
Watch Harry Potter and other cool movies that come out
Update my Resume
Organize stuff for moving into the house in August
Eat some good seafood
Get a tan
Finally put up the Monet in my bedroom
Go to Germany....hopefully
Don't complain too much when I get my wisdom teeth pulled,actually no complaining at all
Work on SWE stuff
Go climbing
Drink 2 liters of water a day
and write more nonsense in my blog

Kids are annoying.

Today I came to the conclusion once again that I'm not gonna have kids for a long time and I would suck as a housewife. I arrived at this conclusion after babysitting this morning and Liam (that little brat) got very close to driving me insane. His attention span is about 2 seconds and he has the special talent of screaming for his mom constantly in this insanely high pitched voice only a guy before puberty can achieve. Even Amy (the baby with the longest eyelashes ever...makes me jealous) who normally is the cutest baby in the world was little Ms. Grumpy today and cried the entire time and smeared noodles and pear everywhere on her high chair. Yeah, before I'm gonna have kids I will most definitely think twice. And after almost ruining dinner yesterday and my sister coming to my aid and then yelling at me because I put wet towels in the laundry hamper I decided that the only reason why I would be a soccer mom is so that I can drive a mini van and carry huge beach bags around. I should probably just move to Hawaii and lay on the beach all day. I'm quite jealous at my parents who are having a blast on Hawaii right now. Swimming with sea turtles, eating breakfast out on the balcony with palm trees and watching lava flow out of a volcano is just sweet. Wow my brother is actually playing his viola again, I'm listening to him right now. SWEET, he can actually play the LOTR music. I hope he gets back into orchestra in high school. Ok, I should probably help my sister get ready for the surprise pool party. Yea...

Long day and my brother won't stop playing his bass.....

I went to Houston today to help my lil sister with her orientation at U of H. After getting lost in the ghetto, I know for sure where MacGregor Road leads to now. Anyways, of course I couldn't resist and had to wear a Tech shirt (GO RAIDERS) which got me a couple of weird looks as I was walking around campus. My sister of course gave me the obligatory campus tour and I have to say U of H has one of the funkiest campus I have ever seen. Granted it is the only campus besides Tech that I have ever seen. My first impression was "Tech looks soooo much prettier than this, this is ugly" After seeing the brand new Rec Center equipped with an outdoor pool, palm trees, a tall climbing wall and all this other awesome stuff I kinda changed my mind. Then I saw the SWE hangar, which is just sweet because SWE members just hang out in this old hangar all the time in between classes. Then of course the Architecture building just blew me away. I'm not an architecture major but even I wanted to cry because of jealously. Next was the library which is brand new and almost unbelievable as well. U of H also has all these cool fountains and ponds on campus and then there are all these totally ugly, old and mismatched concrete buildings that make up the rest of campus. In the end I couldn't really decide whether this was a pretty or ugly campus. But I'm totally proud of my sister, I know she is gonna have a blast and really enjoy her major at the on campus Hilton which is a sweet hotel by the way. Afterwards I drove to Westheimer to get some shopping done around 5ish, which was a big big mistake. I know that Houston people are gonna laugh now but as a Greater Greater Houston Area Person I totally forgot about rush hour and construction. Go me. After I finally made it home before my foot started cramping up too much (I freaking drove the standard to Houston, Go me again) I'm now sitting here trying to relax and my brother decides he is gonna play the bass some more. I think I'm just gonna go to bed.

Roadtrips and Camping?!

This is one paragraph from my wonderful roomie and friend Audrey’s latest entry in her lifejournal.

"anyways, my dad is still job-searching and constantly doing stock research/investing-he worries/stresses a lot, and these things are constantly on his mind-i'm praying he'll find a job soon, because i can't handle him like this-he's making his hair go gray, and his blood pressure go up. he always says he's just "emoting" when he sighs or groans in frustration and aggrevation. i just don't get it-if i were off work like him, i would take a road trip or go camping or something and take advantage of the time off. i know that he needs a job-and he still has to pay for the house, cars, my and my brother's college (which for evan is in three years) but there's nothing wrong with taking time away from stress to meditate, pray and think."

ok, when I read this I just had to rant, so here it goes:

Audrey, I just hope that a couple of years from now when you have kids and actually have to provide for them you won’t think the same way. That whenever you are unemployed you don’t go on roadtrips or go camping and stop worrying about how you are gonna pay the bills. I know that money isn’t everything in life. And yes, if you dad wouldn’t get a job you could probably live of your mom’s salary. But that would probably mean that you would have to sell the cars, move into a smaller house and no college for you or Evan and I know that you are not willing to cut down on the lifestyle you are living right now. So yes, you dad has a right to worry because he STILL has to pay for the house, cars AND for college. This is not a time for him to take roadtrips. Sorry if I have offended you, but the way you are thinking just doesn’t work. If you are single maybe, but at least not for a father who has a family, loves his family and wants his daughter and son to go to college. The reason why he is worrying is because of you. I know that it is hard to watch, I can’t handle my dad stressed out either. But just because you stop worrying that doesn’t mean the problems will go away. And not having a job is a rather big problem.

Boooo

In exactly 11 days the European Championship in Soccer is going to start. But will I be able to watch the games...? No, of course not because it will only be shown on pay per view. Thank you ESPN and FOX sports for totally disappointing me.

25th Anniversary

Today is my parents 25th Anniversary. Yesterday a ton of people came over to decorate the house like it is tradition in Germany. It was just simply amazing, my parents weren't expecting it at all. They all brought food and drinks and stayed for a while. The most hilarious part of the evening though was my brother's reaction to my parents kissing. He just turned around in total disgust and said:"UIHH, that's my parents!" He just finds it disgusting, I think it is totaly amazing that my parents still love each other that much. I'm really proud of them.

Turkish Hashish

My brother brought up the topic of Turkish hashish at breakfast this morning. We didn't know if it is the same word in English or if hashish translates to marijuana. We busted out the dictionary and it told us that hashish is the same word in English and used to make a joint. My mom looked surprised and said:"So that's what in a joint?" My brother replies:" What did you think they put in it...parsley?" Needless to say I was on the ground laughing. The situation was just funny. My lil bro cracks me up.

White Oleander

I read Audrey's blog about 2 seconds ago and found out that she is reading the book "White Oleander". The funny part is that I'm reading exactly the same book right now. That must have something to do with the whole roommate thing. Maybe we can even develop psychic powers or so.

Deprived

I talked to my friend Melissa today and she told me about her awesome climbing trip to Datil.....I almost died. I wanna go climbing so bad, it's not even funny. How am I gonna survive all summer long??? I'm just gonna go to bed. :(

I love my lil sis

My sister is graduating this Saturday. I'm so excited except that I have to watch a grand total of 500 and something students graduate. It's gonna be a long evening. But anyway I'm totally proud of my sister. She is going to go to U of H in the fall to study Hotel and Restaurant Management at the third best program in the Nation. Wohoo. Ok, I gotta save my toasted sandwich, I think it's getting burned. Later...

Farewell Freezerburn.....good thing that I already changed the name of my blog

Freezerburn, age 2, of Lubbock, Texas passed away on Saturday, May 22, 2004 due to dropsy and cancer. He was born about two years ago I assume somewhere in Lubbock.

The funeral took place today Saturday, May 22, 2004, at the newly renovated guest bathroom at the Aheimer Residence in Lake Jackson, Texas, at 9:30p.m. with Anika flushing the toilet and her sister Kathrin and friend Michaela witnessing.

He is survived by his owner Anika Aheimer of Lake Jackson, Texas; no children and no grandchildren. His parents are probably dead by now too. And who knows where his brothers and sisters are.

Freezerburn's lifetime achievements include blowing huge bubble nests, jumping out of the tank 3 times and surviving, going on frequent roadtrips from Lubbock to Lake Jackson and back, getting a blog named after him, freaking out people constantly because they thought he was dead, and surviving for almost a year with a huge blue tumor growing on his left side making him lopsided.

White Walls

Today we had to take pictures for our Adjustment of Status aka the Green Card. They have all these requirements such as the right ear has to show, the background has to be white or offwhite....and that's when we came across our first problem. We don't have a single white wall in this house. We have every imaginable color from yellow over cornflower blue (my room :) ) to neon green but not a single white wall. I thought that was kinda funny.

24!!!!

Season Finale of 24 next Tuesday and this time I'm not gonna miss it. My freaking sister forgot to tape it tonite. I was so mad. Oh well, next Tuesday at 8.

Lost ID

About 2 weeks ago I had lost my Tech ID at the Climbing Club party....or so I thought. I happily went to the ID office 2 days later to get a new not broken ID with a new picture that looks more like me. About 2 seconds ago I was sitting on the couch looking through my wallet and I found a pocket that I had never seen.....or so it seemed. And what do I find......of course my old ID. Go me. That means that I actually kept my record of never losing anything. So I simply put my old ID back into the pocket that I never even knew existed. End of story.

June 18th

The day I get my wisdom teeth pulled...Fun :)

Zen Saying

Right is not right; so is not so. If right
were really right, it would differ so clearly
from not right that there would be no need
for argument. If so were really so, it would
differ so clearly from not so that there
would be no need for argument. Forget
the years; forget distinctions. Leap into
the boundless and make it your home.

CHUANG-TZU

Survey

And noone has filled out my survey yet. I thought at least one or two people might fill it out. This is sad :(

Land of the Trees aka Greater Greater Houston Area

I got back to Lake Jackson on Wednesday and it hasn't been too boring yet. I got a bunch of things taken care off such as registering for my history class this summer, ordering a parking permit since I get my car next year. Weee, I'm so excited. Besides that I drove my lil bro around a bunch (And yes I am gonna be a Soccer Mom someday), worked out a bunch, started cooking since I really suck at it and I gotta learn before I move into a house next fall and I watched Les Miserable today. My High School Choir and Orchestra performed the entire musical. It was just plain awesome. I recognize a bunch of sophomores from High school and then it dawned on me that they are seniors now. Time just flies, it's amazing. They haven't changed much at my High School. The huge picture with all the drill team members including me still hangs in the hallway. The mural we painted my senior year is still there as well. My High School even smells the same as always. Anyway, that's enough about my high school memories. Back to the real world. Tomorrow I have an appointment with Dr. Flueger so that he can tell me when he is going to take out my wisdom teeth (Fun) and then I have yoga class in the evening. I guess that will give me something to do so that I don't get totally bored. Oh well, I think I'm gonna go work on my puzzle. Later...

Bored thus doing quizzes

Athena


?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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Finally got the comment thing working...yeah...

Thus putting up the survey everybody else put up. Just copy and paste as a comment.

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?

6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?

11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?

16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?

21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?

26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
29. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
34. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?

Bored thus filling out this survey

1)Full name: Anika Almuth Christina Aheimer
2)Single or Taken: single
3)Sex: female
4)Birthday: December 6
5)Sign: Sagittarius
6)Siblings: 2, lil sis and lil bro
7)Hair color: Brown
8)Eye color: Bright Blue
9)Shoe size: 8 1/2
10)Height: 5' 6"

R e l a t i o n s h i p s
2)Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: No
3)Did you send this to your crush: No
4)Where is your favorite place to shop: IKEA
5)Any tattoo's or piercings: Nope, never really wanted either one

T h e E x t r a S t u f f
1)What kind of shampoo do you use: Pantene Pro-V
2)What are you most scared of: The Unknown
3)What kind of car do you want: Volkswagen Golf
4)Who is the last person that called you: Audrey
5)Where do you want to get married: Not in Las Vegas, that's all I know, Close to family probably
6) If you could change anything about yourself what would it be: My Accent, I hate it

F a v o r i t e s
1)Color: Blue
2)Number: 3
3)Food: My Mom's Food
4)Boys name: Estin
5)Girls name: Azalea
6)Subject in school: Physics
7)Animals: Whales & Dolphines & Freezerburn
8)Drink: Whole Milk
9)Celebrity: Franka Potente
10)Sport: Climbing

H a v e Y o u E v e r...
1)Given anyone a bath: Yes, my little brother when he was little
2)Smoked: Nope
3)Bungee jumped: No, it would hurt my back too much
4)Broke the law: Yea, pretty sure
5)Gone skinny dipping: No
6)Made yourself throw up: Yuck, no

T h i n g s T h a t C o m e T o M i n d
1) Red: Blood
2) Cow: Purple Cow = Chocolate
3) Greenland: Flight home to Germany because the plane flys over Greenland for a bit.
4) Do you like filling these out?: Only when I'm really bored

WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW: Nothing, it's completely quiet in the house except for the computer fan.
WHO IS SITTING NEXT TO YOU: A wooden rooster
WHO DO YOU WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF YOUR LIFE WITH: My husband, whoever he may be
WHO DO YOU ADMIRE: My Parents
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY: Life
HOW MANY BUDDIES DO YOU HAVE ON YOUR LIST: 72
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO: Climb, Read, Hang out with friends
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED ON THE PHONE WITH: Audrey
DO YOU LIKE YOURSELF: Yes, I'm pretty content with who I am
DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR FAMILY: Yep
HAVE YOU EVER HATED ANYONE IN YOUR FAMILY: No
WHATS YOUR FAVORITE VEGGIE: Asparagus
FOOD PLACE: Many favorites, I love food.
PLACE TO VISIT: Germany or any climbing location
FAVE MONTH: December
NIGHT OR DAY: Early Morning if I'm up
SUN OR RAIN: Snow
SCARY OR HAPPY MOVIE: Happy, I jump too much during scary movies
CAREER: Mechanical Engineer or Physics Freak

HAVE YOU EVER......
PLAYED TRUTH OR DARE: Yes
GOT INTO A PHYSICAL FIGHT: My sister doesn't really count
BEEN IN A COP CAR: Yeah,
COME CLOSE TO DYING: Not really
BEEN IN A SAUNA: Yep
BEEN IN A HOT TUB: Yep
SWAM IN THE OCEAN: Of course
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT SOAPS: Dove soap is the best, but the tv shows suck, except for Winds of Lubbock
WHAT IS YOUR GOOD LUCK CHARM: My snowflake necklace
WORST SONG YOU EVER HEARD: Some country song
BEST SONG YOU'VE EVER HEARD: There are tons
STUPIDEST THING YOU'VE EVER DONE: I don't do stupid things. :)
WHAT'S YOUR BEDROOM LIKE: Cornflower blue and right now a bunch of crap lying everywhere b/c I just got in from Lubbock.
DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL: I have a couple lying in my bed but I normally kick then out during the night.
MOST PRIZED POSSESSION: My Family
VEGETARIAN: Nope, meat is way to good.
GOOD DRIVER: Yeah, except when I talk on the phone while driving.
GOOD ACTOR/ACTRESS: Nope, I'm just me
DANCER: Yes, I do miss drillteam and ballroom dancing
SHY: If I don't know the people but after that I talk...a lot.
GOOD STORY TELLER: Hmm...I don't really know

HAVE YOU EVER HAD...........
CHICKEN POX: Yep
BLOODY NOSE: Of course
STITCHES: Yeah,
SORE THROAT: Who hasn't
COLD: Who hasn't either
DO YOU LIKE PICNICS: Love them
WHAT SCHOOL DO YOU GO TO: Texas Tech University
LIKE TO SHOP: Not with my sister, but normally yes.
WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WANT: A smoothie, I gotta find out if they have a smoothie king in Lake Jackson

WOULD YOU........
EAT A LIVE HAMSTER FOR A MILLION DOLLARS: No, unless I were really poor
GO TO A HANSON CONCERT IF YOU HAD A FREE TICKET: I would give it to Audrey
KILL SOMEONE YOU DIDN'T KNOW FOR 15 BILLION DOLLAR: No, it's against my beliefs to kill anyone.
IF YOU WERE STUCK ON AN ISLAND WHO WOULD YOU WANT WITH YOU: Any of my good friends.
DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU: I got it from Jay's and JD's journal. And yes I like both of them, they are awesome friends.

Sunscreen Rant

The one thing I never understood is why people hate sunscreen. Dude, sunscreen is your best friend. Seriously......I'm not kidding. I know I sound like my mom, but if there is one thing I hate it is people complaining that they got burned and now it stings and they are peeling. Duh!!! Ultraviolet light tends to do that to ya. Common sense people.....common sense. I don't care if you are trying to be as dark as your Asian cousin or if you are only in the sun for 30 minutes or if you normally don't burn. If you are freaking white, put on sunscreen. If you ever checked the box that says Caucasian on any paperwork, put on sunscreen. Ok, that's it for now, just don't walk up to me and complain that you are burned cause the first thing I'll ask is: "Did you put on sunscreen?"

First Faceplant

I had an awesome day today. Class was easy. I had an interesting talk about PMS with a couple of my guyfriends. Climbing was fun as always and then I met up with a bunch of friends at One Guy's. After that it was girl's night with watching the Bachelor and Extreme Makeover. The former made me wonder how in the world a guy can kiss three girls on one date and the latter made me appreciate how beautiful, hot and sexy all of my friends are. Then I accomplished the incredible feat of doing my first, fullout faceplant. It was nothing too spectacular. I just tried to put on my flip flops, lost my balance completely and fell face first to the ground. It was just plain awesome. Go me. :)

Phoenix Boulder Blast

Phoenix was freaking awesome. Climbing right next to some of the best and hottest climbers in the world is just simply amazing. And all of these climbers in one spot. Just plain awesome. Climbers are the nicest folks too, I didn't meet a single unfriendly person this entire weekend. Wow, I'm still blown away from what I saw this weekend. Chris Sharma, Lisa Rands, Katie Brown, Dyno Comp. Wow, wow, wow. It was totally worth the 13 hour road trip. Although it totally wore me out. I overslept this morning.......again, and showed up to class with the biggest fro ever. Thus I'm going to bed now. (Dang it, I still have to unpack as well) Oh well, nighty night....

Phoenix...here I come.

Leaving for Phoenix tonite to go the the Bouldering Blast. It's gonna be so much fun. 700 climbers in one spot. Fun ;) I'm gonna be exhausted when I come back, but it is all good. And it will be a nice change from the stress this week. Especially from the ordeal with the doctor. I went to get my immigration medical examination done today. And they tested me for tuberculosis. First time that I have ever been tested, thus little did I know that I have to show up 2 days later to get it checked out. We'll I'm gonna be in Phoenix two days from now. So what I have to do is find a nurse in Phoenix that can check if I have tuberculosis or not. I hope some of the climbers are nurses. Oh and another thing I have to do, just to make my to do list even longer. I have to go get my immunization record translated because it is in German. Blah. Way to much work just to get the Green Card. I honestly should just marry the next American guy that walks my way and make it much easier. Oh well, gotta go eat and then attend 2 meetings and a lecture before I leave to have fun in climbing.

First Epic Climbing Trip

I went to Hueco this Sunday to go climbing. It was fun as always. Hueco Tanks just rocks. I didn't sent anything major but a couple of V0s and V1s. Local Flakes and Nobody gets out of here alive are awesome problems ( and very very frustrating b/c I can't do them......yet). But this is not the epic part. We left Hueco at about 7ish Lubbock time. After about an hour drive, the Surburban decided it didn't need it's serpentine belt anymore and broke it. We came to a stop right about midway between El Paso and Carlsbad which is pretty much in the middle of nowhere. Since I forgot to bring my pantyhose on this trip we didn't have anything to replace the belt with so the Volkswagen ended up driving all the way back to El Paso to get the parts. We finally got back on the road at about 11ish, I think and got to Lubbock at about 3:20. I slept most of the time back therefore it didn't really bother me. Things I learned though: Tortillas with crunchy peanut butter and honey are good and you can waste a lot of time throwing rocks at empty glass bottles on fence posts.

Cosmetics and Songwriters

Got this from Kristen's profile. Just go to google, type in your first name and see what it comes up with.
Since I haven't figured out how to pictures in this blog the links will have to do :)

Some Russian website. I have no clue what it says. I don't even think it's Russian looks more like Greek.
www.anika.ru

Cosmetics and Therapeutics......interesting
www.anika-cosmetics.de
www.anikatherapeutics.com

Author Anika Malone. The book seems kinda interesting. Maybe for a short summer read
www.anikamalone.com

New Zealand Singer Anika Moa and American Anika Paris. The songs from Anika Paris are actually quite good
www.anikamalone.com
www.anikaparis.com

And then there are these girls from Pittsburgh and somewhere else
anika.warheart.org
www.contrib.andrew.cmu.edu/~aamin

May I go nuts?

4 Tests
+ 4 Meetings
+ going out of town
+ other stuff
---------------
= Going Crazy

That's what next week is gonna look like. If I don't go nuts I will be surprised. But after I survived that week, I'm gonna have fun in Phoenix. :)

Doubt is the vestibule
which all must pass, before
they can enter into the
temple of truth.
~CHARLES CALEB COLTON


ON GOTTA LOVE THAT IRS:
Bribes and kickbacks to governmental officials are deductible unless the individual has been convicted of making the bribe or has entered a plea of not guilty or nolo contendere.
item in the IRS official taxpayers’ guide

Interesting Nickname

One time in churchcamp my nickname used to be sexgoddess.....

And I'm not kidding. The way this nickname came about is actually pretty simple. At one of the orientations for the camp we played Gummibear Tarot. The rules are simple: You draw five gummibears out of the bag and then look how many of each color you got. I ended up having 3 red, 1 orange and 1 white. You then look up the color combination in the official Gummibear Tarot book and read what it says. In a nutshell mine said that I have crazy sexual fantasies. Having sex with teachers, neighbors, best friends and the like. Thus the name sexgoddess and that one stuck for the entire 2 weeks of camp. We ended up changing it to Goddess of Sex just so that we could say Goddess of S. in front of the little kids. This was church camp afterall. Wow, I can't believe I actually had such a nickname. I guess those were my crazy and wild German Days ;)

Green Card

I talked to my dad yesterday and he had some awesome news for me. He talked to some lawyers in Phoenix ( I have no clue why Phoenix) and they said they are going to speed up our Green Card process. That means that I should be able to work at the latest by next December. And I finally get.......huge drum roll please........my very own and beloved Social Security Number. Yes, I'm so excited. Of course we have to fill out tons of paperwork and take pics and go to the doctor to make sure that we aliens don't have any diseases (like we didn't have time during the last five years to spread Mad Cow Disease). Once all of that stuff is done and I get my working permit etc. they can't kick me out of the country anymore. (Unless we steal Georges cowboy hat.) It then is gonna take about a year or so to finally get the Green Card. So everything is pretty much worked out. But if everything fails there is always plan B.......to find some hot American guy I can marry. :)

Life does not need to
be changed. Only your
intent and actions do.
~SWAMI RAMA

Go Purple Cow

I love the purple cow. Milka chocolate is just so good.

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In groups, you:	Act as host/ess
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Your weakness is:	Your jealous nature
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tradition, do not accept a statement because it is found in
your books, nor because it is in accord with your belief,
nor because it is the saying of your teacher. Be lamps
unto yourselves. Those who, either now or after I am
dead, shall rely upon themselves only and not look for
assistance to anyone besides themselves, it is they
who shall reach the topmost height.
~THE BUDDHA

Anni the icy marshmallow

I don't have many friends but they are the best friends anyone could wish for. I love y'all guys, you know who you are.

After an interesting conversation with one of my friends today I think I figured out who I am.....
A marshmallow with a coating of freezing cold ice
Ok, I did exaggerate a little bit. Maybe the ice isn't that freezing cold. But I do come off as a rather cold person sometimes especially when I'm around people I do not know very well or guys. The reason for this mainly is that I do not express myself very much. I'm afraid of people knowing what I think and feel (especially when it comes to guys). I haven't figured out exactly why I don't express myself much but one reason may very well be that I was uprooted. I never thought about my move to the United States that way, but it does make perfect sense. Having to start all over in a different country with a different language when you are barely 15 does impact and change a person. I have changed into a person who doesn't openly let other people know what I think or feel. Thus the coating of freezing cold ice. But ice is meltable as my very good friends know and then comes the marshmallow....the marshmallow who just wants to be sitting at the beach by a bonfire cuddled up in a blanket with a cute guy.

This weekend I was out of town.....again :) And it was a lot of fun. We went to Oklahoma to go climb and Audrey finally went with us. I have to say this trip was one of the most interesting ones. When we got to Quartz Mountain we all got separated somehow. Melissa's car got stuck in the mud and her engine drowned, JFunk drove off to go mudding, Ben and Tim drove around looking for us. While Audrey, Nate, Jason and I were waiting on everybody else at the campground.
Ok, I was gonna write a bunch more on what happened this weekend i.e. that the weather was gorgeous, Quartz Mountain is beautiful, climbers are weird but fun folks, slab climbing sucks, people still think that I am a Lesbian, I'm most definitely not as outgoing as I thought I was, and my back always kills me after climbing trips, but now I'm gonna take the survey Audrey has on her profile.

1: grab the book nearest to you. turn to page 18, find line 4. write down here what it says:
flowing lines, Bene Gesserit decorative. All streets and build-

2: stretch your left arm out as far as you can. what do you touch first?:
Our awesome loft we have in our dorm room

3: what is the last thing you watched on TV?:
The last real show I watched on tv was 24

4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is:
9:15 pm

5: now look at the clock, what is the actual time?:
9:14 pm

6: with the exception of the computer, what can you hear?:
Audrey typing on the keyboard and listening to Oceanographer

7: when did you last step outside? what were you doing?:
About 2 hours ago when we ate at the Chinese Kitchen.

8: before you came to this website, what did you look at?:
Rockclimbing.com

9: what are you wearing?:
Orange flip-flops, black yoga pants, red Wreck-Em Tech shirt, and a dark blue fleece...hmmmm, I guess I can't be considered a fashion queen with that color combination

10: did you dream last night? what about?:
I didn't dream anything last night. I didn't sleep too well, woke up a couple of times. All I remember is falling asleep on a crashpad outside in Oklahoma looking up at the trees and the full moon. Then I woke up in the middle of the night cause Jason's hair was in my face, then I woke up right before dusk when it was still cloudy and the treebranches just looked really surreal and then I woke up around 9ish to see people already climbing. Pretty interesting night...

11: when did you last laugh? why?:
When Danny told me that his mom got him good on april's fools day.

12: what is on the walls of the room you are in?:
Sunflower calendar, Map of Germany, Smiley Face Flag, Germany and American Flag, Bulletin Board and tons of pics, greeting cards and postits

13: seen anything weird lately?:
Myself in the mirror....j/k. Freezerburn is pretty weird looking with his huge tumor

14: what do you think of this quiz?:
I have no clue why exactly I am taking this, probalbly to procrastinate.....wow I actually never thought that word would leave my mouth..procrastinate

15: what is the last film you saw?:
Jersey Girl with two awesome girls named Laura and Lib

16: if you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?:
A cool car probably one imported from Germany, a new snowflake necklace, climbing gear, maybe a smoothie cause I'm craving on right now

17: tell me something about you that I don't know:
When I was little I had a rather bad middle ear infection and half of my face was paralyzed for a couple of month

18: if you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?:
FREE ICECREAM FOR EVERYONE....no seriously if I could change one thing I would make people stop complaining.

19: do you like to dance?:
Yes, especially Ballroom dancing like Tango, Waltzer, and ChaChaCah

20: George Bush: is he a power-crazy nutcase or some one who is finally doing something that has needed to be done for years?:
He looks like a monkey and acts like one too. If he gets reelected I'm leaving the country......on second thought I might just wear a shirt that says:"I hate George Bush"

21: imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?:
Atlantis Josephine, or Azalea Aramina. Aurora, Lyra, Amaryllis, Zanaya are beautiful names as well.

22: imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?:
Estin, Kirin, or maybe even Nemo. Ok, I'm kidding on the Nemo part

23: would you ever consider living abroad?:
I am living abroad :)

Freezerburn's is growing mold...agghhhh

South Padre was awesome. Everything was just so pretty and beautiful down there. Our hotel was right at the beach and you could hear the ocean from our room. That's always a nice way to fall asleep. The conference was relatively interesting, the food was very delicious ( I love seafood), and building a huge sand Double T at the beach was sweet. But now it's back to reality.

Thermo test on Tuesday....I might wanna start studying for that.

While I was gone, Freezerburn has grown mold. His tumor which used to be blue is now turning white. How in the world can that fish still be alive? If he doesn't die by finals I probably have to declare him a saint or something, because it is freaking impossible to be alive with that huge tumor.

I might have found a place to live next year. One of my SWE buddies Erica told me that Julie is still looking for an extra roommate for her house. It is on 32th and Nashville. I'm going to check it out tomorrow. Hopefully it will all work out. :)

Going climbing again this weekend. Spring Fling in Oklahoma. I'm excited. Haven't been outside to climb for like a month now. Hihi, am I ever gonna be here on a weekend. :)

Nena has to one to most awesome singers ever. "99 Luftballons" is such a cool song.

Just for Today

My high school speech teacher passed this out in his speech class and it has been hanging on my wall ever since. But just now I looked at it and somehow felt like I'm reading it for the first time. It's amazing how used you get to your everyday surroundings and then stop noticing. I really need to be more observant.

Just for today, I will try to live through this day only, and not tackle my whole life problem at once. I can do something for twelve hours that would appall me if I felt that I had to keep it up for a lifetime.

Just for today, I will be happy. This assumes to be true what Abraham Lincoln said, that "most folks are as happy as they make up their minds to be."

Just for today, I will try to strengthen my mind. I will study. I will learn something useful. I will not be a mental loafer. I will read something that requires effort, thought and concentration.

Just for today, I will adjust myself to what is, and not try to adjust everything to my own desires. I will take my "luck" as it comes, and fit myself to it.

Just for today, I will exercise my soul in three ways: I will do somebody a good turn, and not get found out. I will do at least two things I don't want to do--just for exercise. I will not show anyone that my feelings are hurt; they may be hurt, but today I will not show it.

Just for today, I will be agreeable. I will look as well as I can, dress becomingly, talk low, act courteously, criticize not one bit, not find fault with anything and not try to improve or regulate anybody except myself.

Just for today, I will have a program. I may not follow it exactly, but I will have it. I will save myself from two pests: hurry and indecision.

Just for today, I will have a quiet half hour all by myself, and relax. During this half hour, sometime, I will try to get a better perspective of my life.

Just for today, I will be unafraid. Especially I will not be afraid to enjoy what is beautiful, and to believe that as I give to the world, so the world will give to me.

Just for today

~ Kenneth L. Holmes

Auras

Today I was told by one of my friends that I am a girl after all. I asked him what he meant and he told me that I changed this semester because last semester I gave off this asexual aura.......what the crap?!?!? Just because I don't' have a boyfriend doesn't mean I don't like guys. I like them very much actually I just never say it out loud when I think a guy is cute or I have crush on someone. Psshhh......asexual aura. I can't believe that. Sorry that I'm not like my hot, flirty roomie who is a guy magnet. I'm just a little more independent and I don't express my thoughts and feelings as much as other people. And btw I do own and wear skirts and high heels.

On loneliness....

"....as I sat down to begin my meeting with the Dalai Lama, I suddenly decided to set aside my list of prepared questions and asked, " Do you ever get lonely?" "No," he said simply. I was unprepared for this response. I assumed that his response would be along the lines of, " Of course...every once in a while everyone feels some loneliness...." Then I was planning on asking him how he deals with loneliness. I never expected for confront anyone who never felt lonely."

How wonderful it would be to never feel lonely....

What is the most miraculous
of all miracles?
That I sit quietly by myself.
~ZEN MONDO

Kilimanjaro

When my mom and I went to the chocolate exhibit on Friday we also saw the IMAX movie "Kilimanjaro - The Roof of Africa".....and I decided that I'm gonna climb that mountain too. I already put it on my list of "Things to do before I die"

Random stories and thoughts...

I had a fun day at the beach today with Danny, JD and a bunch of other hot guys and cute girls. ;) We played frisbee and even built a sandcastle. The beach is always fun, thus that's where you are gonna find me all summer long. Anyway, after we had fun at the beach we went and got some good seafood. Man, I do miss the beach, the gulf and the entire Houston area a lot. But the plains are fun too, especially when we have sandstorms. ;)

Tomorrow my mom and I are gonna go the Chocolate Exhibit at the Houston Museum of Natural Science. I really hope they have lots of samples of chocolate. :) Going to the museum with my mom is always fun. I love doing stuff like this. And my mom is the cutest.

Melissa emailed me today to tell me that Freezerburn is still doing great and that she is going climbing this weekend. :( I really gotta work on the teleportation thing in my physics lab so that I can beam myself up to LCC to go climb. It's been barely a week and I'm already deprived. I swear I'm addicted to climbing. This is gonna be horrible during the summer when I'm gonna be stuck down here in flat Lake Jackson. I guess that means a lot of climbing trips. :)

I realized again today that I think too much. If I had to live on an island by myself for a while, I would go nuts pretty quickly cause I would just think too much. I guess thinking is a good thing, but not when you don't really know how to express it. I always want to let everyone know what I 'm thinking but I never seem to be able to talk about it or write about it. And whenever I do it just doesn't come across as clearly as it is in my head. It would be kinda cool if people could just read my mind for like 10 minutes so that they can actually see what's going on in my head. Maybe people would understand me better....

I lost my snowflake-necklace at the beach today... :( I'm really upset about it. Especially since I forgot it at the gym just two days ago and I just picked it up this morning before going to the beach and then I lost it again. I kinda wish I could have lost it doing something epic like getting the necklace caught on some rock while doing a sweet climb or losing it because of an awesome bust while snowboarding, but no..... I have to loose it at the beach. How ironic..... a snowflake on a beach.

Just some other random thoughts...
Houston is big, strawberries are good, I hate my accent and I need a boyfriend.

Aggghhh....

After I got back from eating kolaches with my mom, yum....I realized how much freaking stuff I have to do after spring break and almost got a panic attack. But it is still sprink break and thus I will enjoy it as much as possible. I already had tons of fun with playing vball, going to Astroworld, going to the beach etc. Although it would be even more fun if I could be climbing. I briefly though about buildering up our house, but I quickly discarded that idea because I love my life way to much. Anyway, I think I'm gonna go do some hw so I don't get to stressed out when I come back.

Random Thoughts while Flying

As I was at the airport waiting to get on my flight to go to Houston I did what I normally do at airports. Observe people...It's one of the funniest things to do and the airport is the perfect place to do so. Even though Houston Intercontinental, Amsterdam and Hamburg are more interesting airports, Lubbock International does just as well. People are just so interesting to observe. There was this one lady wearing high heeled sandals and purple socks. Yes I don't know much about fashion either but that is just wrong. I also know that huuuuge flowery, butterfly looking glittery belt buckles are not the latest fashion either. Geez that girl could have knocked someone out with that belt buckle, but she most definitely needed that belt cause her pants were ultra, ultra, ultra, megalow. And then there was this girl in front of me that just couldn't that complaining. I haven't seen such a whiny girl in a long time. I swear she acted like she was in kindergarten. She was all quiet at first and then her boyfriend or friend walked up to her and there she went in this whiny voice: "I'm gonna have the crappiest seat on the airplane. Look, there is only 5 people behind me." "I'm hungry." Friend:"Do you want me to get you some food?" "No, I don't want any of this food, I want a salad." "Why aren't Chris and Brian here yet.?I don't like waiting." This went on for quite a while with her clinging to her friend and just whining. Like he could do anything about it. Oh boy, why can't people just stop complaining. Life is hard and then you die, so just deal with it. So after I had gotten on the airplane and was seated between two nice middle aged ladies who were looking at beauty magazines. (Just a little tip, don't look at beauty magazines they will only make you feel fat and ugly) I realized that my new goal is to develop an airplane with huge windows. Cause the current ones are way to small. Whenever you sit in the middle seat you just can't see a thing. Since I just love staring out the window while flying and I could do so for hours and hours, I decided airplanes need to have bigger windows. I know that this might not be technically possible or not economical, but big windows would just be so awesome. Another interesting thing I found out while flying is that DFW has way to many baseballfields. Because I flew at night one just couldn't help but notice the brightly illuminated pieshapes called baseballfields. Baseball is a boring sport by the way. Last but not least I think it is amazing how much trust we put in our technology. This was just a rather random thought, but there you are sitting in this airplane and only 2 sheets of Plexiglas separate you from the outside. The outside that is freezing cold and I don't know how many feet above the ground. You can actually feel the cold when you put your head against the window, which should be bigger btw. Lol, my lil bro just walked in and he just cracks me up. His hair is almost longer than mine now and it just looks like crap. But he is a guy so obviously he doesn't care. He did care though when I beat him in armwrestling. I'm kinda pathetic for arm wrestling my lil 13 year old bro. Anyway, me and my sis are gonna play some vball.

Learn the backward
step that turns your
light inwardly to
illuminate yourself.
~ZEN KOAN

Spring Break....yea

Today at 6:05 pm I'm gonna be on a plane to Houston. I'm so excited to see my family again and do absolutly nothing. Just chilling at the beach, getting burned and reading a good book. And of course catching up on sleep cause I actually managed to sleep through my 8 o'clock thermo today. :) I was totally out of it when I woke up at 9:16. I hate that feeling when you wake up and you know you overslept. Oh well, I gotta do some more research for I lab cause I still don't have a clue what we are actually doing. :)

Crazy Defense Department

ON THAT WACKY POLYSYLLABIC
DEFENSE DEPARTMENT:

manually powered fastener-driving
impact device . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . hammer

emergency exit light . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . flashlight

frame-supported tension structure . . . . . . . . . . tent

wood interdental stimulator . . . . . . . . . . . toothpick


U.S. Defense Department definitions

About Snacks

Mini Bagels and Nutella......the best snack in the world :)

Funny

ON NEWSPAPER MISTAKES,
SO EASY TO MAKE:

CORRECTION : Last week’s column mistakenly misidentified a source. The European Commission president is Romano Prodi, not Buffy the Vampire Slayer.

correction notice in the Prague Post

Yep... :/

As I was eating with Lib and Audrey at Fazioli's the Housing question came up again. I did sign up for the dorms just in case, but I really wanna move off campus somewhere. I have no clue where and with whom though. It is kinda starting to worry me. All my friends already live off campus and the only person I know would move into an apartment with me would be Audrey but of course she is gonna be living in her apartment in San Marcos.......I kinda wish my sister could have come up here to Tech but she is going to U of H to attend the 2nd or 3rd best Hotel and Restaurant Management Department in the Nation. *proud* :) Oh well, I guess I just think about this later....

No Climbing :(

So this is the first weekend in a while I'm not out of town.....it's kinda nice and kinda not. But Audrey and I did a lot of fun stuff. Watching Ballet Magnificant, a Christian Ballet Company, which was totally awesome, then hanging out at the coffee house and at Laura's and now we are about to go see a play at the TTU Theatre. I love stuff like this ballet & plays & music etc., but I think I'd rather be climbing.... :)

"Climb Now, Work Later."

"The best climber in the world is the one who's having the most fun." — Alex Lowe.

"Yoga is a system, scientifically proven to boost your climbing ability significantly. Why do you think you always see that Guru figure sitting on the top of the mountain? You think he/she got there by enlightenment ?" — Lg.

Good Mood....

In a good mood again.... :) Climbing is just awesome....it never fails to put you in a good mood when you need it the most......Girl Talk always put you in a good mood too......life is just awesome, it's complicated but awesome.....

Bad Mood...

I'm in the worst mood ever today and I really don't know exactly why....it's probably a mix of things like the weather, boring classes, missing my family, Audrey transferring, stupid crushes and finding out things about friends you didn't want to find out, because it makes stuff kinda awkward

Since I hate being in a bad mood I'll just listen to some music like cool European music and thinking about this quote and hope it's gonna put me in a better mood:

Each dewdrop and
raindrop has a whole
heaven in it.
~Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Relationships....

A rather interesting topic....relationships with your friends, roomates, boy/girlfriend, family and crushes. My sister called me today and said that she is totally exited to see me over spring break and that she misses me. Once again I got this warm fuzzy feeling in my tummy because I love her and my family so much....whenever I'm around them everything is alright and I feel totally comfortable because I can be completely myself. I never worry what they may think about me like I do with almost everybody else except for my best friends. Isn't it funny how one is always trying to make the best first impression on people and constantly worries about what they think about you but then as the relationship grows you just don't care anymore, because you know your friends, roommates accept you for who you are. I always worry....always worry about how other people see me. I don't even know why....I just do. Especially when I meet new people. About 4 weeks ago I just meet the majority of all my climbing buddies and starting hanging out with them more. But I still worry about what they think about me. I always feel like I have to live up to a certain standard, which of course is completely stupid. It's especially bad when I have a crush on someone. Hmmm, crushes are a very interesting topic...and I'll leave it at that, cause I don't like it when people know who I have a crush on. :) Anyways, some upbeat news for a change, I just talked to my sister on the phone for like 1.5 hours and I'm excited to go home for spring break....yeah....I love my familly

On Life...

Why does life have to be so complicated?



*shrug* I'll ponder that later....

Fun Weekend

I had fun again this weekend. Girls Poker Night was fun, especially since I won. :) Climbing in Last Chance was awesome except for the fact that it snowed there and the temperature was like 10 Fahrenheit or so. Good thing that I got to sleep in the truck. :) Especially with those Hurricane like winds. Climbing trips are just awesome. Getting out of Lubbock, being outdoors all day, climbing with some awesome friends. You are always pretty exhausted when you get back, but you are in an awesome mood and then your roomie who is one of your best friends tells you she signed the lease for her apartment in San Marcos for next fall. :( That's never good. But anyways Audrey and I are gonna have some awesome times for the rest of the semester, just like we do all the time. Running errands, eating at cool places, getting our hair cut...and so on. Love you Audrey....

Interesting Day

Today was a rather interesting day. My classes this morning were a complete bore. Then I had lunch with Jen during which we both were totally out of it and sat at two different tables which were right next to each other. That was kinda funny. Then I had Intermediate Lab for the first time this semester. Yes for the first time since the middle of january. So I walk in and our prof kinda goes....ok, all you are gonna have to do is spectroscopy, you have got this mechanical chopper, this monochrometer and this thing, this FDP, this PTR and whatever....y'all are gonna have to do some research on that. Great, this lab should be very interesting, I'll probably know the library back to front and back by the time I'm through with this class. But it most definitely will actually help me become a better scientist, cause I'm gonna have to make up my own labs some time in the future....We'll see how that works out. :) So around 5ish I went climbing for a bit before the SWE meeting and then I went climbing again..........and now I'm sore. But it will all be good by Saturday when we leave for Last Chance. Climbing outdoors is by far my favorite thing right now. I just enjoy being outside so much and climbing and hanging will all of the guys....and yoga and snow and....food. Food is always good. I should probably bust out the German Chocolate I have in the fridge. And sore backs are not good at all, I should probably do some more Yoga this weekend. Today just kinda fixed my back temporarly....lol, it was funny how Audrey just kinda chuckled when she walked in the door and saw me saying hello to the sun....anyway I'm off to bed, cause meditating today just made me kinda tired, which it is not supposed to do....somehow I'm not getting anywhere with that....I'm just not focused at all....my mind just keeps on wandering.....maybe some sleep will do. Good thing that spring break is just 2 weeks away.....anyway my bed is calling....

It's snowing again...yay....:)

Lubbock weather is crazy.....over the last 12 days it just changed so much. First we had snow on Valentine's weekend, then we had warm sunny days til wednesday, then a dust storm, then two rainy days and now snow again.....wow. The only thing we are missing would be hail and hurricanes. Kinda cool...the weather always has a surprise for you up here.

The Phantom of the Opera is such an awesome musical.....It automatically puts you in a better mood....

It's rainy and I'm sleepy
And it's a monday......crappy combination...

Anyway I had fun this weekend in Palo Duro. S'mores are always good and climbing is even better....Not getting enough sleep and still staying up til 2 am is not good. This weekend completely wore me out....It's most definitely time for spring break to refuel. I'm gonna be going home, to simply sleep, relax and read books.....

As I was walking to class this morning everything seemed really surreal. I know it is b/c I didn't get much sleep but everything was just so weird. And what's up with the weather being all summery today. I know it's just the Lubbock weather but it just adds to the strangeness of things. But the strangest thing happend on my way to the dining hall at lunch today. As I turned around the final corner in the hallway the thought of how complex life really is popped into my head. I mean if you really think about it...just take one day out of your life.....just one day out of the about 30,000 days (if you live to be 82).....and now think about what you did during that day.....count every little thing....from doing a puzzle online, reading a flyer in the hallway, saying hello to the lunch lady to looking up online if there actually is a difference between table tennis and ping pong (btw there isn't a difference). Now think about all the people you walk by, smile at, think about or talk to....all of them not just your roomie or mom but all of them and then think about the relationships you have with every single one of them....how did those relationships start, grow and change....how many new ones are there and how many old ones have fallen apart....I mean just think about all your teachers you ever had from kindergarten til now, those are already quite a lot and then just add all your classmates and then think about all the things you ever did with them.....from snowball fights to waiting for the bus together.....just think about all the snowballfights you already had in your life or for all of you Texans how many times you have been swimming.....think about all the pictures in your room and all the memories, days, activities, people connected to just one of those pictures....just one of them....when and where you took that picture, where you got them developed and who you looked at the pictures with....right now I'm sitting at my desk looking at all the stuff on just my desk alone....chapsticks I got at the climbing comp, calculator I just bought a couple of week ago, kleenex imported from Germany, picture of my lil bro Alex, scholarship application I filled out halfway and so on.......what ever happenend to those days when you were alone, sitting in a cave with bow and arrow and just one set of clothing (jk).....but life truly is complex......I can't even look out the window at that blue Ford Explorer without thinking about all the people I know that drive one of those and without wondering why that person is parked in backwards and why Explorers use so much gas.....ok, I'm thinking way to much about this.....but it is just really amazing....life is so complex and so beautiful.....:)

This is my most favorite quote in the entire world.....

"You're existence is enough to make at least one person happy."

Maybe this is finally it for Freezerburn. I caught him floating on his side twice today...his tumor is just getting to big and ii is weighing him down. From what I can tell he probably has less than a week to live. :(

I just read over my previous journal entries and i can't believe that all that stuff that I wrote about just happened last fall. It was only a couple of month ago and it already seems like ages ago. It is also rather interesting because one can actually see things changing and see things that stay the same by reading old entries. Hmm...just a random thought of mine.

SNOOOOOOW

Wow, I'm incredibly happy right now....really happy. Snow just rocks my socks off. It really does. Watching the snow fall, catching snowflakes in your mouth, forming snowballs with your bare hands until they go numb, getting a couple of awesome shots (for which I deserve to get some points :) ), getting back inside and warming up and getting all cozy, being reminded of some awesome times in my childhood. Good times.....good times. Snow, Nature, Life is just soooo beautiful. I can't get enough of life right now.

My Mama sent me some German chocolate for V-Day (Singles Awareness Day). She is just the sweetest in the world and I love her sooo much. I just hope she is getting better pretty soon. She is still pretty weak form the pneumonia. I wish I could be there but I know that my awesome Papa, Sis and Bro are taking care of her. I just love them...I love them all. My family, my friends....my bed cause I'm getting dang tired. I should probably go to bed, but I think I'm gonna stay up for a little longer to make sure Andrew gets in ok. Driving all the way from Austin to Lubbock in the snow. I wish a guy would do that for me once...anyway going to bed now so I can be fresh for the climbing comp tomorrow. I'm really excited about that...I love hanging out with my climbing buddies...and climbing....and life.

My opinions, my beliefs....so please don't get offended.

I totally agree with this guy....

The Buddha, like modern sociologists and psychologists, believed that religious ideas and especially the god idea have their origins in fear. The Buddha says:

Gripped by fear people go to sacred mountains, sacred groves, sacred trees and shrines.

We don't believe in a god because we believe in humanity. We believe that each human being is precious and important, that all have the potential to develop into a Buddha - a perfected human being. We believe that humans can outgrow ignorance and irrationality and see things as they really are. We believe that hatred, anger, spite and jealousy can be replaced by love, patience, generosity and kindness. We believe that all this is within the grasp of each person if they make the effort, guided and supported by fellow Buddhists and inspired by the example of the Buddha. As the Buddha says:

No one saves us but ourselves, No one can and no one may. We ourselves must walk the path, but Buddhas clearly show the way.

~ Ven S. Dhammika

I hung out with Laura and Lauren tonite and we went to Underground at the Wesley Foundation. Remembering the last time I went to Paradigm I was afraid I was going to get all confused and messed up on the whole religion thing again. But to my surprise I did not. I walked in there with a pretty open mind and I learned a lot. Mainly that you can go to a Christian praise and worship even if you are a Buddhist and still get a lot out of it. I probably won't do it every Thursday but going every so often to Underground or Paradigm might be a really good thing. Yes, there were quite a few things I disagreed with and that strengthened my belief in Buddhism even more but it helped me understand Christianity a little bit better as well. I also realized that praying is not just a Christian thing. Yes, I might not pray to God but I can still pray. Praying that my mom will have the strength to get better and quit smoking so she doesn't get pneumomia anymore and praying that my awesome roomie is going to be able to make her decision and be happy with that decision and the place she is going to end up at and praying that I will be able to find true and complete happiness, because that is the purpose of our lives....to be happy. :)

This is my simple religion. There is no need for temples; no need for complicated philosophy. Our own brain, our own heart is our temple; the philosophy is kindness.

We have to adopt a wider perspective, and always find common things between the people of north, east, south, and west. Conflict comes from the basis of differencs.

Freedom is the real source of human happiness and creativity. Irrespective of whether you are a believer or nonbeliever, whether Buddhist, Christian, or Jew, the important thing is to be a good human being.

His Holiness
the Dalai Lama

I finally started meditating again....I haven't done it in a while and the other day one of my climbing buddies told me he meditated for an hour the other day and I realized that I'm still at the beginning.....the beginning of my meditation practices....the beginning of my spiritual journey towards finding myself.....the beginning of enlightenment... it is going to be a long slow journey but I'll get there eventually....

Meditation does not come easily. A Beautiful tree grows slowly. One must wait for the blossom, the ripening of the fruit and the ultimate taste. The blossom of meditation is an expressible peace that permeates the entire being. Its fruit ....is indescribable." Swami Vishnu-Devananda

It snowed......! I think that's all I have to say. Right now I'm the happiest person ever....snow, climbing, friends, family.....what more could you possibly want?

Awesome Weekend

Hueco was sooo much fun. Even though I didn't climb much, it was still cool. It's just so beautiful down there. Really quiet and relaxing. I could have just sat there on the mountains and meditated the entire day. It truly is a special place. And the climbing most definitely is some of the best in the world. Just watching the guys do some really crazy stuff was amazing. Hanging of 60ft cliffs, falling head first, setting new routes, climbing til your finger tips and nails start bleeding, waking up in the middle of the desert with frost on your sleeping bag, great and sometimes stupid arguements with science and philosophy majors, being really sore......awesome times, really awesome times :)

I came once to sit on Cold Mountain
And lingered here for thirty years.
I divined and chose a distant place to dwell
T’ien T’ai: What more is there to say?
Monkeys cry where valley mists are cold
My grass gate blends with the colour of the crags
I pick leaves to thatch a hut among the pines
Scoop out a pond and lead a runnel from the spring
By now I am used to doing without the world
Picking ferns, I pass the years that are left.
Cold cliffs; more beautiful the deeper you enter
Yet no-one travels the road.
White clouds idle about the tall crags;
On the green peak a single monkey wails
What other companions do I need?
I grow old doing as I please.
Those face and form alter with the years
I hold fast to the pearl of the mind.
Wise men, you have cast me aside.
Fools I do the same to you.
I would be neither wise man nor fool;
From now on, let us hear no more from each other.
When night comes I sing to the bright moon;
At dawn, I dance with white clouds.
How could I still my voice and my hands
And sit stiff as a stick with my grey hair rumpled.

Lib's profile dedicated to me....:) Isn't that awesome?

stretch marks!
"I wish I could be a baby again, cuz I was much cuter then" ~Anika

Bumper Stickers

Random Tought of the Week
(dedicated to Amy Cannon - Survivor Lubbock, Texas)

The other day Audrey and I were on our way to Wally World when we stopped behind this Jeep at the traffic light on 4th and Indiana. The Jeep had bumper stickers all over it and of course we were reading all of them. There were a couple of Double T stickers and a 5 ft long mullet sticker. Then we saw an ETSU alumni sticker and of course started wondering what in the world ETSU stands for. We kept on examining the bumper stickers and found a Bucs Baseball one. Audrey's and my awesome sport knowledge couldn't help us out on this one. After looking even more closly we saw the words East Tennesse State written on the Bucs sticker. So we finally determined what ETSU meant. While we were wondering why the guy has both Tech and ETSU stickers on his car, we came across a TTU Graduate School Biomedical something sticker. It struck us that this guy came to Tech for graduate school. We discovered our final piece of evidence. An ETSU student parking sticker.......from 2003. Our genius minds put it all together and we reached the conclusion that this guy in the Jeep in front of us went to East Tennesee State University, likes baseball and 5 ft mullets and came to Tech's graduate school just last year for biomedical stuff. Isn't it amazing how much bumper stickers tell about you?

ON EXTRA SENSORY
PERCEPTION NETWORK:

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Reporter: You and your teammate work really well together.

Basketball star Magic Johnson: Yes, it’s almost like we have ESPN.

The point is to perform every
activity, from playing basketball
to taking out the garbage, with
precise attention, moment
by moment.
~PHIL JACKSON

From the moment they wake, they devote themselves to the perfection of whatever they pursue--I have never seen such discipline
~ Algren - "The Last Samurai"

"Die Superbowl geht mir am Arsch vorbei" Loosely translated... "The Superbowl can kiss my butt"......I just love my dad. He always speaks his mind. So instead of watching the Superbowl like everybody else did on Sunday, my dad put together the new entertainment center. Now you may ask....new entertainment center? For what, if he doesn't watch the Superbowl? To be honest I don't know. *shrug* Probably for watching CNN International or something.

So I'm going climbing this weekend down in Hueco. I'm totally excited. I have never been and I am gonna be completely sore, but it's gonna be a whole lot of fun. :) And then the next weekend we have the climbing comp up here. Fun Stuff. Life is just sooo exciting. And I also realized that I use the word "so" way too much. So I'm gonna stop using it. :)

Finally i think I pretty much decided this weekend that I'm going to claim Buddhism as my religion. Surprise, surprise.....not really. One just has to look at my blog and profile to figure it out. Anyway finishing with a random quote from the book I live by.
".....There are five billion human beings and in a certain way i think we need five different religions. I believe that each individual should embark upon a spiritual path that is best suited to his or her mental disposition, natural inclination, temperament, belief, family and cultural background. " ~Dalai Lama "Art of Happiness"

Winds of Lubbock.....coming soon

Buddhists believe in rebirth. But suppose that through various investigative means, science one day comes to the definite conclusion that there is no rebirth. If this is definitively proven, then we must accept it and we will accept it. This is the general Buddhist idea. ~Dalai Lama


Each of us has responsibility for all humankind. It is time for us to think of other people as true brothers and sisters and to be concerned with their welfare, with lessening their suffering. Even if you cannot sacrifice your own benefit entirely, you should not forget the concerns of others. We should think more about the future and benefit of all humanity.

Also, if you try to subdue your selfish motives--anger, and so forth--and develop more kindness and compassion for others, ultimately you yourself will benefit more than you would otherwise. So sometimes I say that the wise selfish person should practice this way. Foolish selfish people are always thinking of themselves, and the result is negative. Wise selfish people think of others, help others as much as they can, and the result is that they too receive benefit.

This is my simple religion. There is no need for temples; no need for complicated philosophy. Our own brain, our own heart is our temple; the philosophy is kindness. ~Dalai Lama

So I woke up this morning and I was as content as I could possibly be. Those mornings are the best...you wake up and marvel at how beautiful life is. You don't care about how much hw and stuff you have to do...you don't worry about any problems you have...you just wake up and you are happy. It is the best feeling in the entire world. :)

"I believe that the very purpose of our life is to seek happiness. That is clear. Whether one believes in religion or not, whether one believes in this religion or that religion, we all are seeking something better in life. So, I think, the very motion of our life is towards happiness....." With these words, spoken before a large audience in Arizona, the Dalai Lama cut to the heart of his message. But his claim that the purpose of life was happiness raised a question in my mind. Later, when we were alone, I asked, "Are you happy?" "Yes," he said. He paused, then added, " Yes....definitely." There was a quiet sincerity in his voice that left no doubt - a sincerity that was reflected in his expression and in his eyes. "But is happiness a reasonable goal for most of us?" I asked. " Is it really possible?"
"Yes. I believe that happiness can be achieved through training the mind."

~"The Art of Happiness"

He’s a guy who gets up at six o’clock in the morning regardless of what time it is.

boxing trainer Lou Duva, on heavyweight Andrew Golota’s strict training schedule (thanks to Dan Rutz)

About Fish

ON THOSE JAYWALKING FISH:
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HER PEUGEOT 406
ESTATE COLLIDED
HEAD-ON WITH A FISH
AT THE BIG TREE BEND,
NEAR INVERKEILER.

from the Aberdeen Evening Express


Many men go fishing
all their lives without
knowing that it is not
fish they are after.

HENRY DAVID THOREAU

Complaining....it seems like it's the only thing people are good at these days. Right now my mom is in the hospital with pneumonia. They gave her morphine for the pain and she isn't complaining. So what if it is cold outside, so what if classes are hard or boring, so what if we lost against UT. A little optimism can't hurt people.

"I think that, leaving aside how the endless pursuit of romantic love may affect our deeper spiritual growth, even from the perspective of a conventional way of life, the idealization of this romantic love can be seen as an extreme. Unlike those relationships based on caring and genuine affection , this is another matter. It cannot be seen as a positive thing. It's something that is based on fantasy, unattainable, and therefore may be a source of frustration. So, on that basis it cannot be seen as a positive thing." ~Dalai Lama

"When one is in love, one always begins by deceiving oneself, and one always ends up by deceiving others. That is what the world calls romance." ~ Oscar Wilde

"No man or woman really knows what perfect love is until they have been married a quarter of a century." ~ Mark Twain

Basing a relationship on the qualities of affection, compassion, and mutual respect enables us to achieve a deep and meaningful bond not only with our lover or spouse but also with friends, acquaintances, or strangers - virtually any human being. It opens up unlimited possibilities and opportunities for connection.

....as I sat down to begin my meeting with the Dalai Lama, I suddenly decided to set aside my list of prepared questions and asked, " Do you ever get lonely?" "No," he said simply. I was unprepared for this response. I assumed that his response would be along the lines of, " Of course...every once in a while everyone feels some loneliness...." Then I was planning on asking him how he deals with loneliness. I never expected for confront anyone who never felt lonely.

Sad Sad Story

It seems like this blog is going to have a change of names in the near future. Freezerburn does not seem to be well at all. The doctors give him maybe a week or so to live. His cancerous tumor has taken over most of the left side of his body, making it hard to swim upright and breathe properly. In addition to his cancer he has fin rot and a swimbladder problem. Poor Freezerburn :(

Reason follows the heart, it does not guide it. A pure heart is thus the most essential requiste for mental and physical health. ~ Mahatma Gandhi

Funny Stuff

Sonja Zietlow (host of the German Weakest Link): What popular chocolate bar was named after the Roman god of war?

Contestant: Snickers.

Sarah, you were an awesome classmate and friend. You will be missed.....

I just found out today that one of my good high school classmates died earlier this month. I never really knew her that well, but now i wish that i did. Sarah was one of the sweetest girls ever. I remember how I meet her in precal and how much fun we had eating cookies and watching our teacher do high kicks. And now she is gone, kinda hard to believe. She always helped me out with everything...made me feel welcome when I first moved here. I wish I would have stayed in contact with her. She died on January 8th and I didn't find out til today. I feel really awful that I'm so bad at keeping in touch with my friends. Hopefully I'm not gonna do the same thing with y'all....all my Tech Buddies. What's the worst thing though is that I can"t stop thinking about how Dawn must feel right now. She lost her best friend and her Dad in the fall last year. Why does death have to be such a terrible thing? Why....

On a more positive note I wanna give a shout out to all of my awesome friends up here at Tech. To all my AKPsi, Phi Lamb, KYX, BYX, Engineering, SWE, Red Oak, Doak, and Physics Buddies and everyone else. I love y'all and thanks for make life so much fun.

This was on my "365 Stupidest Things Ever Said" Calendar today.
How can a guy like that be President of the United States of America.....

Actually, I—this may sound a little West Texan to you, but I like it. When I’m talking about—when I’m talking about myself, and when he’s talking about myself, all of us are talking about me.

President George W. Bush, during an appearance on MSNBC’s Hardball

After an awesome weekend at Danny's house i think I have hit the first low of the semester....I'm confused once again and in a crappy mood. Maybe climbing and watching 24 tonite is gonna cheer me up a little bit. I don't even know why I'm in such a bad mood. Maybe b/c all of my classes are a total bore...maybe b/c I didn't do a thing over the last couple of weeks and the boredom just gets to you...maybe b/c of stupid crushes....maybe b/c I do miss my family a lot...maybe b/c I'm not getting anywhere on this religion thing of mine...maybe b/c I'm just tired. So this Dillard's truck just drove by my window and I'm wondering what in the world a Dillard's truck is doing in the service parking lot. This parking lot only goes to the kitchen.....strange, very strange, but it made me smile. It's amazing how I can sit alone in this room and make myself smile. Being able to entertain yourself is an awesome ability or maybe it's just crazyness....i mean insanity....is crazyness even a word? Well, I'll make it one. B/c I'm the crazy German.....the crazy German scientist that walks the fine line between genius and insanity everyday. Or maybe I'm just a nerd or a dreamer that can just daydreams for hours and hours. I think if I would be able to write books about what goes on in my head then....it would be a fantasy world like no other. My world. Ok, time to listen to some Pur...one of the best German bands ever. Dang it, that just puts me in a weird mood again cause I know that nobody reading this knows the band or understands why I like them so much. I sometimes wish that I could have grown up in the US just so that I would actually share the same culture with my friends....but then the German Pride comes through again...*huge grin*. It's only been 4 years that I have lived here so it's understandable that I'm torn between the two cultures but I wish I would finally find my place in all of this...find out for sure where I belong. "Geweint vor Glueck" is the best song ever and that's what I'm doing right now...sitting in front of the computer and crying because I'm happy....and smiling at myself b/c I'm so stupid. Ok, I shouldn't have told y'all that. *grin*

One instant is eternity;
eternity is the now.
When you see through this
one instant,
you see through the one
who sees.

When we understand, we are
at the center of the circle, and
there we sit while Yes and No
chase each other around the
circumference.

I love this quote, it's just plain awesome.....dude.....sweet.....totally......

Your awesomeness is magnified only by your ability to totally rule.
~Crush - "Finding Nemo"

Why do people always complain.....it seems like it has become a habit of today's society to just complain about everything and anything....why can't people be happy for a change....i mean we are fortunate that we don't live on the street, that we have food and are able to go to an awesome university....so people just remember "life is beautiful"....you just gotta believe it....remind yourself every day of the beauty that surrounds you even if it is a duststorm.....lol

An away message dedicated to me.......isn't that awesome.....Amy you rock!

I'm reading the book Integrating Chickens and Taking the Derivative of Water for Dummies
This away message is dedicated to A.A.A.! Isn't that great?!

Who wants to spend quality time with Snowflake Anni and Audrey the Awesome and will kindly escort us to their home where we can view the wonderful Disney Movie "Finding Nemo" together. (In other words pick us up so we can use your tv and dvd player)

So Audrey and I decided that for all the money Tech spent on the new Stadium they could install flatscreen TVs in everybody's dormroom. I mean seriously you live in your dorm for like 9 months and we only use the stadium like 6 times a year. 6 times!! Unbelievable.....for the price of the new stadium extension Tech could have bought 26,666 Gateway 42-inch ED Plasma TVs including DVD Players. Just think about that for a second.

Anyways, it's 7 o'clock and Audrey is in bed already. Strange, very strange...maybe this means that the world is gonna end tomorrow. Hopefully not cause I'm really enjoying life right now. Not much to do cause classes are over with, I had an awesome bday, the weather is nice and cold, I already got started on the Xmas shopping thing,I get to home to the land of the trees in a couple of days, Xmas parties with friends and Christmas is just around the corner, then maybe Houston Bowl and then New Years, then the next semester and I already know like 5 people in each of my classes. Awesome, Life is just sweet except for immature friends that give you a mouse and a fish for your bday if you didn't ask for them. Denis and Steven, just grow up please.

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.

How Old is Your Inner Child?
brought to you by Quizilla

Just a couple more days til christmas break.......a well deserved christmas break. Then I get to drive home with Amy to Lake Jackson - Land of the Trees. Watch out Tahoe Ladies!!! Til then I still have a couple of finals - yuck- and my BDAY - yeah! All I honestly want for my Bday is snow. I miss snow. Snow rocks my socks off.....really. And we are not going on skiing vacation this year :( Personality test are fun if you are bored. Supposedly I'm all of the following.

Peaceful . . . Discreet . . . Non-Aggressive
You are easy-going yet discreet. You make friends effortlessly, yet
enjoy your privacy and independence. You like to get away from it
all and be alone from time to time to contemplate the meaning of life
and enjoy yourself. You need space, so you escape to beautiful
hideaways, but you are not a loner. You are at peace with yourself
and the world, and you appreciate life and what this world has to offer.

Analytical . . . Trustworthy . . . Self-Assured
Your momentary sensitivity represents that which is of high quality
and durable. Consequently, you like to surround yourself with little
"gems," which you discover wherever they are overlooked by others.
Thus, culture plays a special role in your life. You have found your
own personal style, which is elegant and exclusive, free from the
whims of fashion. Your ideal, upon which you base your life, is
cultured pleasure. You value a certain level of culture on the
part of the people with whom you associate.

You are Tweety.
You are cute, and everyone loves you. You are a best friend that
no one takes the chance of losing. You never hurt feelings and
seldom have your own feelings hurt. Life is a breeze. You are
witty, and calm most of the time. Just keep clear of back stabbers,
and you are worry-free.

You have selected pineapple.
You are quick to decide and even quicker to act. You are brave in making career changes; if that is what is to your advantage. You have exceptional organizing abilities and are undaunted by the size of the task at hand. You tend to be self reliant, sincere and honest in your dealings with others. Though you are not given to making friends very quickly, but once you do, it is for life. You rarely, if ever, make romantic overtures. Your partner is often impressed with your sterling qualities but disappointed in your ability to show affection.

Just a couple of quotes....

A hundred thousand words are flowers in the sky
a single mind and body is moonlight on the water
once the cunning ends and information stops
at that moment there is no place for thought.
~Han-shan Te-ch’ing

In other words, apart from the known and the unknown, what else is there?

When we attain reality, it is seen to be neither personal nor impersonal.
~The Song of Enlightment

The road uphill and the road downhill are one and the same.

Not to know certain things is a great part of wisdom.

Old River Mountain a slab of rock
that blue heaven’s swept to paint on
and written there an ancient poem
green letters worked in moss.

And ’tis my faith that every flower
Enjoys the air it breathes.

I don't really like pink but that's ok

See what Care Bear you are.

Winter!!

So I got out my winter jacket and my snowflake hat and my scarf today because it was only 2 degrees (Celsius that is...) outside. I officially declared winter today. Yeah, I love winter. I just want some snow. Anyways, back to chillin, eating a dozen Krispy Kremes and watching TV.

Freezerburn is not doing any better :/ I hope he doesn't just die on me. I'm kinda really attached to him. Anyways, I hate immature people that call in the middle of the night screaming "Aaauuuudrey" on the answering machine and then try to apologize by adding a "Sorry Anika" at the end. Just for your info Steven, Audrey never wakes up but I do and I hate you. So anyway, nothing really interesting is going on except homework and tests of course. I can't wait to go home for Thanksgiving. My mom just received tons of boxes of old toys we still had in storage in Germany. (This kinda means we are most definitely staying here) I'm sooo excited to go through my old toys and see what I can find, like pink carebears. Plus I finally get to sleep in our new house, which I helped to renovated over the summer but I left for Tech before we moved in. But most importantly I get to see my family. I really do miss them a whole lot. My lil crazy skater bro, who wears a beanie to an UIL Orchestra competition. My preppie sis, who spends 2 hours in the bathroom each morning getting ready. My mom, who throws welfare parties and sends me German chocolate. And of course my dad, who is just another crazy German Engineer like I am. : ( I really wanna go home now. But I guess I gotta go to physics lab first.

Just a couple of cool quotes.....

When Governor Lu was about to return to his office, he came to say goodbye to Nan-ch’uan. The Master asked him: “Governor, you are going back to the capital. How will you govern the people?”
The Governor replied: “I will govern them through wisdom.”
The Master remarked: “If this is true, the people will suffer
for it.”

Only that which does not teach, which does not cry out, which does not condescend, which does not explain, is irresistible.

There is no solution, for there is no problem.

Once a monk asked Master Yun-men, “When not one thought arises, is there any error?”
Yun-men said: “Mount Sumeru!”